Nancy,
Oh my Nancy,
You were much too much for me,
yet
not enough.
I loved you, yes, very true, but
You flew away from me—
It was quite abrupt.
I should’ve known when I first
Saw you,
Climbing the high school fence,
I woke up from the everlasting dream, finally,
Love caught my heart, & I had no defense.
I stood back and felt
Your distant light shining like a Star,
So illuminating
And ghostly and dreamy,
I could not reach it,
it was too far.
You let me in,
Nancy, and yet I tried to be
Someone who was patient,
For I could truly see(unlike anyone else)
That wonderful beam of spunk that you were,
And I hoped you could also see, between us,
I was trying to infer.
You yelled as you started the climb, “Let me reach the top of this Redwood, dear, it won’t take very long,”
And I shook my head, and furrowed my brow,
Cause; Nancy—-you were too headstrong.
I should’ve said, no, I should’ve
Stopped you
From trying to make that daring climb—-
But my darling, intense Nancy,
It was only our first dream date, Nancy
And
You were not yet mine.(was this date in my mind?)
I kept whistling to calm my nerves,
Nancy, watching you up that high,
My nerves were twisted,
So I whistled it,
Denying your mortality
For the sake my love, divine.
We shuffled from our picnic spot
To have a drop of Merlot,
But then you asked me for a race, and you laughed for I was
much too slow.
I saw your spirit dip and bend,
Unlike the massive Redwood tree,
and
I noticed you had that same spunky spirit
As that girl from Nightmare on Elm Street 1 and 3,
Nancy—-that day you had unleashed
my insanity.
I always loved her,
I mean you,
Nancy,
I drew her up in my dreams,
In my sheets and on my pillow,
Kissing you
Under searing sun beams.
Until that last first dream date,
You talked to me for hours and hours,
Of your passions and fears and worries,
And of how you were feeling sour,
But I knew it wasn’t because of me,
I saw it in your eyes,
You had a free spirit to match your spunk,
It (our love) was a theory I conceptualized.
I might’ve had a nightmare long ago,
That sank my heart and made it race,
But then I reshaped it each night
That turned it into your sweet face.
I didn’t obsess about her(you) long,
Cause that’s when I found out the truth,
And Nancy, when we spilled that Merlot,
Darling,
It got all
Over
You.
Too much red, I said.
Too much for me indeed.
That climb was much too high, my dear,
It was the worst of all ideas to plant—-a very evil seed.
I never thought you ever
Wanted me, really, Nancy, for
Your hair had just turned a little white,
And terror struck your beautiful face,
That once was full of delight.
I never really liked the color red,
Anyway Nancy,
Though that rich Merlot you took to, you seemed to embrace,
It was a bit funny we spilled it all,
We never got to have more than one taste.
I cleaned up that
Silky red Merlot that covered
The woods all red, mangled in
Flesh and dirt and bright eyes—-
And then we kissed, I do believe—-
Because Nancy, you had fallen,
Landing on me
And now
I am dead.
About the Creator
Melissa Ingoldsby
I am a published author on Patheos,
I am Bexley by Resurgence Novels
The Half Paper Moon on Golden Storyline Books for Kindle.
My novella The Job and Atonement will be published this year by JMS Books
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