The Blind Curiosity of an Archer

There are many ways we can discover ourselves through self-exploration. A Zodiac acts as a fundamental portal into more and more self-discovery. First, we start out hearing we all have an assigned Zodiac sign and since that door normally opens when we're younger, it's hard for anyone not to ask, "What am I?"

Here, we introduce ourselves to the undeniable, codependent relationship nine out of ten of us develop between who we are and where we can find our answers.

Is it a never-ending spiral of self-discovery or is it a means to make sense of all the events in our lives that, we, ourselves can't make sense of? It isn't farfetched to believe that growing up and universally hearing, "the North Star will guide you home," would develop our contingent need for direction through our Star signs. If questioning the signs isn't a dead giveaway as to which sign, I am, well I'm a Sagittarius of course!

The Archer...

As a child, I loved the outdoors. I was always creating adventures for myself and playing pretend. I've always been a dreamer, seeing the potential in anything and falling into my elaborate imagination early on.

Inventive, it was never hard for me to create. I'd build forts throughout our three-acre woods, and for fun, I'd take my friends to the clearing, where an abandoned trailer sat with bloody bear claw marks throughout the exterior. At least that's the story I created in my little world to heighten the experience; the typical storytelling Sag. But that curious little adventurer in me is the main quality that assembled my belief in Astrology.

By the end of Middle School, I had established my true sense of curiosity, thanks to a Summer Rec counselor. The summer before High School, I would stay up 'til the crack of dawn chatting on AIM with my counselor. I would see he was online and would always build up enough guts to message him and pick at his brain. He was by far the most extraordinarily intelligent person I had ever met. He was a Sophomore studying Philosophy at Bucknell and he was talking to me, of all people about Existentialism. It was as if I had fallen right into line with my untapped potential and I would imagine myself with abstract thoughts just like his. As his class peers, the other counselors would praise his intellect and I would always think, "I want that same praise one day." I couldn't have asked for a better mentor at that point in my life. If it weren't for him, I'm not sure I would have ever discovered my satisfaction of the unknown.

I feel that when we are younger, we are all more aligned with our Star signs. We have a way of falling right into line with the traits that make up our personalities when we're children. As experiences creep in, we start to introduce the dark side of our signs.

Being a Sagittarian, it's no secret I would delve right into the spider web of complexities that make up my individual Zodiac. I enjoy being the person with more insight. It's not because I want to be the smartest in the room, I just want to be the first person to open another's eyes to an even bigger world. It's funny, looking back on my High School years, I felt my greatest asset was bringing facts up that no one knew but I loathed the academic structure. My greatest strengths always came from self-learning.

In love? Well, Sagittarius is a flighty sign. We always have one foot out the door whether we are aware or not. On the light side, this can be an attractive, alluring quality- not far from the seductive nature of a Sag; but the dark side can lead to spiraling paranoia. One unwanted question will always lead to a web of questions and conclusions that only a Sag would understand.

Throughout my years, I was exhilarated by laying my heart on my sleeve almost instantaneously as a game. Because I'm a Sagittarius, dating always came with a well calculated persona and plan. No matter how honest about myself I was, it was my subtle detachment and then annoyance with someone invading my independence that always led to, "I just don't understand you.." The trick of it was- my words were needy in text, but my actions were entirely the opposite.

If any of these people knew who they were really talking to, they would know a Sagittarius is undeniably attracted to being told someone doesn't understand them. Especially in love. It may be a power complex or it may be the unconscious parallel between the nature of loving the unknown and becoming the unknown.

"The unknown excites me, therefore I am an exciting."

In my later years, the elements of trust, love, and complete self sacrifice of a Sag have become a bigger part of me. I am an open book for the sake of always being the source of comfort and dependability my partner needs. I've normally given 'til my heart bleeds, but I found my Leo who gives even more and makes love feel both passionate and safe. He's shown me that my independence is never ending and because of this, the mutable fire sign that I am is always at peace.