The Darkside of Sex

Chapter 6: The Big Reveal……………………….52

Chapter 7: Trail of Tears………………………….63

Chapter 8: Double Jeopardy……………………..74

Chapter 9: Officer Johansson……………………84

Chapter 10: First Lesbian Experience…………93

Chapter 6

The Big Reveal

Eighteen months later, Mark was working as a

plane mechanic, and Jessie ran her own business as

a private accountant for several law firms in the

area. Marks' income paid their bills, While Jessie

saved every dime, she made a nest egg for the future. The day came when Jessie would get violently

ill whenever she smelled a foul odor.

After a week of Jessie feeling ill, Mark and Joyce

tried to persuade her to go to the doctor. Joyce suspected she may be pregnant but kept her suspicions

to herself.

The haunting memory of the school nurse discovering she was pregnant came flooding back. Jessie

decided not to jump to any conclusions and purchased a pregnancy test at the local drugstore. The

next morning, Jessie got up extra early. Inside the

privacy of the bathroom, she nervously waited for

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the longest three minutes of her life. The tests' final

analysis indeed confirmed she was pregnant. Different questions started to dance in her mind. Like,

how will Mark take the news? How do I tell him?

What if we are not ready for a baby? Am I prepared to be a parent? What if I am not a good

mother? Can we even afford a child right now? It

seemed like she surely would have a psychological

breakdown over the uncertainty of it all.

It is no wonder Jessie's emotional and mental state

is fragile. When every single foster family she has

ever lived with had failed Jessie. Not even one of

them ever stepped up and took full responsibility

for her wellbeing. The government even had given

the foster families extra money. That way, Jessie

could attain the psychotherapy she needed. The

problem was that they never used the additional

cash for Jessie's therapist. Instead, they would spend

it on frivolous gifts for their legitimate offspring.

While Jessie never even owned the simplest of toys.

The broken and discarded toys of the other children in the household is all she was ever allowed to

play with. The ones who were supposed to nurture,

love, and protect Jessie always treated her as their

personal servant. The only good example of a

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loving family she ever had known was Mark and his

grandmother.

While Jessie cuddled with her hubby, she decided

to go on a fishing expedition and asked, "Baby, how

many children would you like to have?"

Mark sleepily replied, "As many as possible since

I'm an only child," Then he drifted off to sleep.

That night, it was impossible for Jessie to sleep.

Her mind was consumed with thoughts of how she

should announce her pregnancy to the family.

The next day, Jessie went to a local bookstore on

the corner of Elm and Main Street. The inside

smelled of aging glue, bleach, and dried ink. It sold

new and used manuscripts. While sauntering down

the many isles of towering filled bookcases, two specific books grabbed Jessie's attention. One was

about parenting techniques and the other was modern names for babies. These would be perfect gifts

for Mark's upcoming birthday in three days. As Jessie paid for her purchases, she asked the salesclerk

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if he knew of any specialty bakeries. The clerk referred her to one called Jazz's Sweet Tooth, conveniently located four-minutes away.

When Jessie entered the bakery, distinct types of

scrumptious aromas came rushing out. A middleaged Spanish woman with short black hair, brown

eyes, and a welcoming, warm smile stood behind a

glass case next to the cash register. After Jessie decided on a two-layer cake, she strolled to the counter and placed her order. Jessie requested different

colored layers, one in blue the other pink. The

frosting had to be white with pink scalloped edges

and the words Happy Birthday Mark in blue. Centered underneath Mark's name, she requested a

plastic stork carrying a baby in its bill. After designing her order and paying, she scheduled its delivery

for Saturday, at seven p.m.

In the kitchen late Saturday morning, Jessie pulled

out Joyce's crock-pot and began preparing a pork

roast. In the pot, she strategically placed hidden

clues by using baby carrots, tiny potatoes, and pearl

onions for flavoring. Mark's birthday had to be perfect. Many different scenarios play out in her head

on how tonight would go. At least the element of

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surprise was on her side. Joyce had taken Mark

shopping for his birthday present. Jessie busied herself cleaning the house as dinner slow cooked in the

kitchen. Ten-minutes before Joyce and Mark are

due home, the cake arrived. Jessie laughed to herself as her plans for the evening began to play out

flawlessly. To keep the secret guest of honor from

prying eyes, she hid it in the kitchen pantry.

When Joyce and Mark entered the house, they

placed their many bags down in the foyer. Jessie

heard them commenting about the fantastic aroma

coming from inside. When Mark and Joyce entered

the dining area, they found a flawlessly set table and

a delicious meal waiting for them.

On the table, there was a freshly tossed spinach

salad, homemade dinner rolls, and a platter with an

impeccably cooked roast with all its fixings. Jessie

had used two burning white tapered candles as the

centerpiece. It complemented a white lace-trimmed

tablecloth, Joyce's expensive gold-trimmed bone

china, and freshly polished silverware. After dinner,

Joyce and Mark complimented Jessie on their delicious meal. Jessie then excused herself from the table and returned carrying the boxed cake. She

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nodded at Joyce, cueing her into singing happy

birthday to Mark.

While the two women sang happy birthday to

Mark, Jessie placed the box down on the table in

front of her husband. Mark had a puzzled look on

his face when he opened the container. Oblivious to

the fact that the cake decorations where a clue, he

naturally assumed his spouse had bought him a predecorated cake at the last minute, and flashed his

wife a smile as he thanked her for the cake.

Neither Mark nor his grandma, noticed the subtle

clues Jessie had strategically placed throughout their

meal and dessert. It took Mark cutting the first slice

of cake for Joyce to realize what was happening.

Joyce began shrieking with excitement the moment

she figured it out causing Mark and Jessie to nearly

jump out of their skin.

Joyce exclaimed, "Oh my gosh! Mark, you need to

wake up, or should I say wake up, daddy!"

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A single tear rolled down Marks cheek as he

looked into Jessie's eyes. In a trembling questioning

voice, he asked, "honey? Are we having a baby?"

Jessie both cried and smiled as she nodded yes.

Mark immediately stood up from the table and

swooped his pregnant wife into his arms. He began

spinning her around the room while kissing her

deep and passionately. When they finally had

stopped twirling around, Joyce walked up and congratulated them with a group hug.

"Going to go call Mom and Dad, I will be right

back," excitedly announced Mark!

As Joyce's happiness welled up inside, the mere

thought of being a great grandmother pleased her

immensely. Joyce grabbed for Jessie's hands and began jumping up and down elatedly.

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Retreating for the evening, Mark carried Jessie upstairs to their bedroom. Standing next to their bed,

he cradled his entire future family in his strong muscular arms. As Mark's precious curvy wife sensuously slid down his hard body, Mark kissed his beloved spouse. They could not keep their hands off

each other. Never once did the happy couple stop

kissing. Hastily they removed their garments tossing

them carelessly throughout their room. Slowly,

Mark placed soft kisses down toward Jessie's warm

pregnant belly as he kneeled at her feet.

With his arms around Jessie's waist, Mark placed

his ear to his wife's stomach and commented, "Hi

there little one, I can't wait to see and hold you in

my arms. Your daddy loves you so much."

That evening, Mark refused to have intercourse

with his alluring wife. The safety of their unborn

child was of the utmost importance to him and Jessie, who also did not know any better. That night,

entangled in each other's arms, feeling like a complete family, they fell into a serene slumber.

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By the time Jessie had gone in to see the medical

provider on Mark's insurance plan, she was close to

four months pregnant.

Once Jessie strolled into the O. B. G. Y. N. office,

there were three other pregnant women already

waiting to be seen. Since she had the best insurance

available on the market, it was not long after completing her medical history forms that Jessie was

called back to the examining area. The trio of other

moms to be darted her dirty looks. Jessie even

heard them whispering nasty remarks toward her.

As Jessie sat upon the exam table, she swayed her

feet back and forth, patiently waiting for a nurse to

come to check her vitals.

When the nurse entered the room, Jessie grabbed

the opportunity and asked, "I hope this does not

sound stupid but is it safe to have sex when you're

pregnant? Can having sex harm the baby?"

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The nurse uncontrollably laughed until she noticed the seriousness in her patient's facial expression. Suddenly feeling negligent and ashamed by

her behavior, the nurse cleared her throat and apologized to Jessie. She then proceeded to explain how

it was completely safe to have sexual relations while

pregnant. Assuring Jessie that having sex would do

no harm to her infant. The nurse then gave her a

paper gown and asked her to put it on.

Before taking leave of the room, the nurse said,

"the doctor will be in momentarily."

Jessie's obstetrician entered and introduced herself as Dr. Kasey Connelly. Immediately Jessie noticed her long shiny blonde hair, bright blue eyes,

and long shapely legs. Oddly, Jessie found herself

attracted to her doctor.

Connelly began asking many questions concerning

Jessie's pregnancy. Afterward, Dr. Connelly suggested for Jessie to lay back and place her feet into

the stirrups. It was that moment when Jessie's

memory was triggered. The past abortion

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procedure she had been forced into as a kid came

flooding back. Even though she now felt more apprehensive, she still followed Dr. Connelly's instructions. A cold chill coursed through Jessie's already

chilled body. If it had not been for Jessie focusing

on Kasey's gorgeous blue eyes during the initial

exam, it would have been too much for Jessie's

mind to digest. All bets were off, though, when Dr.

Kasey inserted the cold hard speculum for the pelvic portion of the examination. It did not matter

then how gorgeous her eyes were, Jessie felt like her

psyche was coming unhinged. Upon completing her

exam, Dr. Connelly left Jessie to get dressed.

Ten minutes later, R. N. returned with Jessie's test

results. Informing Jessie her pregnancy was progressing naturally, and to call the office in a week to

schedule the first of many ultra-sounds to come.

Lastly, the medical professional handed Jessie a bottle of prenatal vitamins and explained how crucial

proper nutrition was for an unborn child's development. After leaving Dr. Kasey's office, Jessie went

shopping for baby items to distract her mind from

the daunting past.

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Chapter 7

Trail of Tears

Joyce had decided it was time to speak with Mark

and Jessie about her physical health. Every other

night for the last two weeks, she has awoken, gasping for air with an irregular beat to her racing heart.

She sensed something was physically very wrong.

With Jessie's ultrasound a few days away, Joyce decided it was as good of a time as any to speak to

them.

"As a family unit, we need to have a serious conversation. Would you both please have a seat and

completely listen before you respond? Soon I will

be placing this house for sale on the open real estate

market. Would you and Jessie do me the honor of

accepting the proceeds to purchase your own

home? In return you could make room for your old

grandma to live with you. Does this sound like a

solid plan to you both," Joyce questioned with a grin

from ear to ear?

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Before Mark gave his grandmother a response,

Jessie took his hand and gave an affirmative nod of

her acceptance of Joyce's generous offer.

At that point, Mark turned to face his grandma

and said, "yes, grandma, we graciously accept your

offer, but we do have one condition we would like

to add before this deal becomes official. You must

agree to go see a doctor to try and find out what is

going on with your health."

Without hesitation, Joyce agreed to their terms.

The next morning, Jessie called around and

searched for a doctor open on Sundays. To her relief, she discovered that Dr. Jeffries's office was

open. Jessie called and scheduled Joyce an appointment for later in the day.

On their drive to the doctor, Jessie sensed Joyce's

nerves were getting the best of her. Especially when

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she began telling a dirty joke in the attempt to calm

herself down.

"Hey Jessie, what did the girl pig say to the girl frog,"

asked Joyce.

"I don't know Joyce, what did the girl pig say to the

girl frog," asked Jessie?

"Tastes like chicken, my ass," exclaimed Joyce!

As they finished laughing their asses off, they pulled

into the doctor's parking lot. Both women took in

deep breaths of hope before exiting the car.

Once inside the waiting room, Jessie and Joyce noticed a small boy around seven years of age sitting

next to his mother. He was swinging his feet back

and forth clearing the floor by several inches, when

his irritated mother popped him on his legs demanding him to quit. Joyce could see how

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unhealthy the boy's face appeared and felt sorry for

the child. Sympathizing with him she flashed him a

smile. The boy smiled a devilish little grin back and

shyly waved at her. Joyce then crinkled her nose at

the child causing him to giggle.

Jessie walked up to a milk glass sliding pane to

sign in Joyce. A senior lady with a kind smile and

silver-grey hair slid the window open. The woman

handed Jessie a brown clipboard with blank medical

forms and a pen attached. The receptionist requested that she fill them out and bring them back

upon completion.

Jessie turned to see that Joyce had already found

herself a seat on a comfortable black leather sofa.

Sauntering over to the couch, Jessie took her place

beside Joyce and handed her grandmother-in law

the medical history forms. Aware of how important

the information could be to her own family, Jessie

paid attention as Joyce filled out the paperwork.

A young medical student entered the waiting area

and called out Joyce’s name. Patting Jessie’s knee

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before standing, Joyce requested Jessie to sit and

wait on her return. Then she strolled off following

the pre-med student. Forty-five minutes later, Joyce

came rushing out with a paled look of fear and urgency upon her face, and without saying a word to

Jessie she hurriedly exited the office.

On the drive home, Jessie noticed a single tear

rolling down Joyce’s cheek.

Once parked in the driveway, Jessie said, "if you

want to talk. I'm here to listen."

Joyce responded, "my doctor heard some abnormalities when he listened to my heart. He has referred me to a cardiologist to have an electrocardiogram and ultra-sound done. It is just a bit scary is

all. Don't you worry about me, I'll be alright".

Jessie half-heartedly smiled in response to Joyce's

statement.

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On the morning of Jessie’s first ultra-sound at

three a. m., the young couple was jolted awake from

a sound sleep by Joyce’s panicked screams. They

Jumped out of bed and threw on their robes as they

ran towards her pleas for help. Mark opened the

door to find his grandmother lying on her bed,

clutching her chest with labored breathing.

Joyce weakly whispered in a strained voice, "someone, call an ambulance."

Ten minutes later, Jessie heard sirens coming

down the street. To flag the ambulance down Jessie

ran outside. Joyce stopped breathing as soon as Jessie had left the room. Immediately Mark silently

prayed for his grandmother to come back to him as

he performed CPR on his grandmother.

Moments later, four EMT’s swarmed the bedroom. While one paramedic attached a cardiac

monitor to Joyce, another used a defibrillator to get

her heart beating again. Two of the ambulance attendants then placed her onto a stretcher. A student

medic asked the concerned couple questions on

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Joyce’s medical history. Jessie and Mark follow the

team carrying the stretcher to the ambulance waiting

outside. After watching the emergency vehicle drive

away, they both quickly ran inside to get dressed.

Jessie grabbed a free-flowing yellow maternity dress

and Mark grabbed a green track suit. After dressing

they hurriedly drove off to the hospital.

In the emergency waiting area, the young couple

worriedly paced back and forth expecting the worst

but hoping for the best. Jessie soon recalled her ultrasound appointment was scheduled for later in the

day.

"Oh no, I just remembered. My first ultra-sound is

today at three o'clock. I'll just reschedule it so we

can both be here for Joyce," said Jessie.

With a grateful look upon his tear stained face,

Mark shook his head yes in response and squeezed

his wife’s hand. For the next six hours the concerned couple sat in total silence.

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Joyce's doctor finally entered the waiting area to

inform her family of her condition.

"Hello, I'm Dr. Addison, the heart specialist treating your grandmother. Joyce has had a significant

myocardial infarction which severely injured her

heart. When she stabilizes, I would like to perform

emergency surgery to repair any damages. You will

need to sign a consent form so I can proceed with

her treatment. Do you have any questions," her physician asked?

"Yes, I will sign the consent for her operation.

When will we be able to see her," asked Mark?

“You can see her once she is out of recovery

from the procedure. Until then, say many prayers

and get some rest. Your grandmother will need you

to be well-rested when she wakes up," replied Dr.

Addison.

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Instead of going home, the worried couple leaned

their heads against each other’s for comfort and fell

asleep on an uncomfortable couch. In the wee

hours of the morning, a nurse awakened Mark and

Jessie to inform them that Dr. Addison had just finished performing Joyce’s procedure, and was now

stable and resting peacefully in recovery. The fearful couple immediately ran to the surgical waiting

room and paced back and forth outside of the recovery rooms. It seemed like an eternity before Dr.

Addison exited from the recovery area. Simultaneously they both ran toward Joyce's surgeon. In

Mark's eyes, he could not reach him fast enough.

He began calling out the Doctor's name. Dr. Addison stopped in his tracks and turned when he heard

someone calling for him. He saw Mark and Jessie

coming toward him at a dead run.

"Doctor, will my grandmother be alright," asked

Mark with a trembling concerned voice?

Doctor Addison responded, "well, it was touch and

go during surgery, your grandmother's heart

stopped several times. Once I had her chest opened

and assessed the damages to her heart. I found it in

the best interest of my patient to perform a triple

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bypass. Only time will tell if the procedure was a

success. When Joyce awakens from the anesthesia,

you can go in to see her one at a time."

Mark was about to ask the Doctor more questions

when suddenly, an emergency announcement came

over the intercom. Dr. Addison was called for a

code blue at bed two in recovery. Without a word,

the Doctor turned and ran through the double

doors behind him. Little did the young couple realize today their lives would change forever. The

tragic events of this very day will be the beginning of

Mark's downward spiral into the depths of a black

hole filled with loss and hatred.

After the most extended hour ever, Doctor Addison found Mark and Jessie sitting underneath a television attached to a wall. When Mark noticed the

Doctor, he lightly shrugged his shoulder to awake

his softly snoring wife.

"I'm sorry, but your grandmother's heart stopped

beating again. In her weakened state, she did not

have enough fight left. Without her having the will

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to live the bypass just was not enough. I'm sorry for

your loss," said Dr. Addison.

Addison walked off when he could not cope with

the deep sadness and despair that washed over their

faces.

Mark had profuse tears of loss stream down his

face. When Mark attempted to walk out, an inconsolable Jessie tried to follow uncontrollably crying.

She desired the comfort of her husband's warm embrace. Instead, Mark held his hand up in a stopping

motion and told her to wait there. Jessie sat down

and cried while awaiting Mark's return. Thirtyminutes had gone by when he came back. Without

a word, Mark extended his hand out to his wife and

led her out of the hospital.

They drove home in total silence. Once in the

driveway, neither one could go inside. It was too

painful knowing Joyce would not ever be waiting for

them at home any longer.

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Chapter 8

Double Jeopardy

Jessie broke the silence with a loud exclamation,

"Oh, shit, Mark, my stomach, it is cramping horribly!"

Mark looked at her and asked, "what is wrong, are

you alright?"

"There is a sharp pain radiating from my lower abdomen to my lower back," replied Jessie.

Jessie screamed out in pain again. She grabbed her

husband's arm and squeezed with a pain-filled

strength. With teary eyes filled with fear, Jessie told

her husband that they must go back to the hospital.

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As Mark rubbed his painful arm, a panicked alarm

coursed through his body. Hurriedly, he backed out

of the driveway and sped off to the emergency

room. On their way, Jessie's pains became more

substantial and more frequent.

With a terrified nervousness to her voice, Jessie

screamed out, "it is too early, please God, I can't

lose our baby! Hurry Mark, Hurry! "

In between her contractions, Jessie continued sobbing over the prospect of losing their baby. Upon

their arrival at the hospital's emergency entrance,

Mark hastily exited the car and sprinted inside to

the nurse's station.

In a panicked stricken voice, Mark quickly explained to the emergency personnel, "hurry. Please,

my wife is in premature labor out in our car. She is

only four to five months pregnant. God, help her

please, I need a doctor now! Please help her please,

I cannot deal with any more loss today!"

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With a wheelchair in hand, a middle-aged nurse

wearing green scrubs came rushing out from behind

the registration desk. When she and Mark got to

the car, they found an unconscious Jessie. She was

not moving or breathing, and Her head was leaned

back on the seat. Not willing to waste precious time

waiting on a gurney, Mark flung open the car door

and scooped his pregnant wife into his arms. Hurriedly, he carried his future family into the E. R. Inside, a nurse opened the door to the medical evaluation area and was leading Mark into an exam

room. When out of nowhere, a doctor rushed up to

Mark and removed his unconscious wife from his

arms.

A full medical team then swarmed the mother to

be. Jessie's pulse was shallow, and her stats were

dropping. After placing her on emergency oxygen

to help her breathe, the medical professionals busied themselves, attempting to save her and Mark's

unborn child. The fetal monitor showed the baby

had no heartbeat. A quick-thinking young intern injected Jessie's I. V. with some adrenalin with the

hopes of jump-starting the baby's heart. The Doctor

placed an order for an ultra-sound to get an idea of

what was going on. Fearful of losing his wife and

child, Mark stood helpless and prayed through his

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tears. When a nurse asked him to go to the waiting

room, he hesitated a bit before obliging her request.

Stressing over his precious family's condition, a

desperate Mark paced back and forth in the hallway

adjacent to the exam rooms. Discovering Jessie was

hypertensive, a nurse gave her an intravenous bolus

of ordinary hemodynamic stabilization.

Once Jessie was holding her own, a surgeon

rushed her into surgery. The physician performed

an emergency c-section to remove the dead fetus

and a D. N. C. procedure. While the surgeon had

Jessie's womb cut opened, he found the reason behind Jessie's miscarriage. Her embryonic membrane had ruptured. His final diagnoses were placental abruption caused by a massive buildup of

scar tissue from an earlier abortion procedure.

A nurse found Mark and asked him to please follow her. After walking down several long, brightly lit

corridors, they took an elevator to labor and delivery on the fourth floor. A concerned Mark repeatedly asked the nurse how his wife and baby were

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doing. The nurse would only say that the Doctor

would speak to them once Jessie had awakened.

When Mark entered Jessie's room, it pained him to

see his wife hooked up to the medical gadgets. He

grew fearful when he did not see a fetal monitor anywhere.

With a pained knowing look upon Mark's face, he

asked the R. N... "where is the fetal monitor?"

All she would say before exiting the room was that

the Doctor would be in soon.

Standing at Jessie's bedside, Mark brushed his

wife's hair out of her eyes and kissed Jessie on the

forehead delicately. With a concerned look on his

face, Mark pulled a chair up next to the bed and

placed Jessie's hand into his.

Jessie slowly opened her eyes and groggily asked,

"Mark is our baby alright? Am I still pregnant, or

was our child born?"

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"We have to wait on the Doctor to come and speak

with us," replied Mark.

Mark excused himself to go to the restroom and

left the door cracked open. Suddenly he heard a

male's voice and peered out to see a Doctor speaking to Jessie. Instead of saying something, Mark just

sat there quietly and listened.

"Sorry to inform you, but your baby did not survive. Your reproductive system is covered in scar tissue caused by your past abortion procedure. It triggered the weakening of your baby's placenta which

then ruptured. It is my opinion that you may never

be capable of carrying a child to full-term," said the

Doctor.

In between sobs, Jessie asked if she could see her

baby. Her physician told her he would have a nurse

bring him in soon.

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"Our baby was a boy," Jessie questioned in a shaky

voice?

"Yes, Mrs. Price you had a son. Again, I am sorry

for your loss, "said the Doctor before he left the

room.

Even though he was less than eight feet away,

Mark could no longer hear Jessie sobbing. His own

grief consumed his every thought. The deep sadness he felt quickly turned into a burning rage.

Mark began blaming his unaware wife for the loss of

their son. Waves of betrayal washed over him turning his face red as many emotions churned in his

gut. Mark had always assumed his spouse had been

a virgin before they married. After pulling himself

together, he exited the restroom. Desperately, Mark

wanted to give Jessie a chance to explain. Not wanting to jump to any conclusions, he walked to her

bedside with his head down and dragging his feet.

He just could not look her in the eye. Soon a nurse

entered pushing a transparent plastic bassinet with a

blue bundle inside. Stopping next to the bed she

gently handed Jessie her lifeless child.

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The R. N. lowered her head out of respect for the

couple’s loss and walked out, giving the grieving

couple privacy to say goodbye to their son.

Jessie gently laid their baby on her lap and slowly

unwrapped the blanket. Their son’s body hair and

nails had barely started forming and his skin was

translucent with a white film. The child was all of six

inches long and weighed six to seven ounces. Their

infant easily fit inside the palm of their hands.

"Mark would you like to hold your son, " Jessie

asked?

The heartbroken father reached out for his deceased son. As Mark lovingly gazed upon his lifeless

child, tears rushed from his eyes. Jessie asked her

husband what they should name him.

Mark handed their dead son back and said, "I can't

do this right now. I'm sorry." Then ran out of the

room.

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Jessie softly cried as she swaddled her baby’s

corpse in his blanket. Cradling him in her arms, she

softly sang Brahms lullaby only stopping to choke

back her tears.

Feeling sorry for himself, Mark left the hospital to

search out the nearest bar to slam back a few

drinks. He found a little dive bar a mile away. Before he left the bar, he had gulped down six draft

beers. On his drive back to the hospital, he swerved

all over the road. It was dumb luck that he even

made it safely back to Jessie at the hospital.

The head nurse stopped Mark outside his wife’s

room and asked him for help. Jessie was refusing to

hand over her child’s body. Mark solemnly walked

up to the mother of his child and reached for their

baby. Reluctantly, Jessie handed their son over to

her husband. Mark then turned and handed the

nurse their son's lifeless body. Jessie started screaming and crying out demanding they return her child.

Another nurse then entered and gave her a sedative

to calm her down.

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While Jessie slept, Mark came up with a name for

their son. On his birth certificate he wrote out the

name Elijah Dean, naming him after his deceased

grandfather. While sitting next to Jessie's bed, Mark

fell into an emotionally drained sleep. The last

forty-eight hours had been a living nightmare. Mark

had lost his grandmother and his firstborn child

within hours of each other. Not to mention, he now

had to face the cold hard truth of never truly knowing the woman of his dreams. Since his grandmother is now deceased, there is no one left to keep

him on a Godly path. These moments in time were

the very beginning of Mark's downward spiral. He

would soon become a hateful, abusive alcoholic towards his wife and put Jessie through many years of

torture.

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Chapter 9

Officer Johansson

Before closing the bus station down for the night,

the ticket teller walked around to ensure no one was

left behind. During his sweep of the station, he discovered Jessie sleeping soundly. Not wanting to be

bothered by the young woman, he called the police

to have her arrested for vagrancy.

Officer Johansson heard the call come in over her

car radio. She responded out of curiosity as to why

the teller requested police assistance for a vagrant.

The bus station employee only had to ask the person to leave. The ticket teller greeted the officer at

the main entrance and led her to where the vagrant

was sleeping.

Officer Johansson was not a bit surprised to find

the same troubled young lady she had given a ride

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to earlier in the day. At first, the police officer stood

there and admired how beautiful she was. The

woman's perfect facial structure, high cheekbones,

long eyelashes, and perfectly arched eyebrows were

breathtaking. Her long shapely fresh shaven legs appeared soft and smooth.

Questioning the Officer, the ticket teller yelled

out? "are you going to get her out of here so I can

go home, or are you just going to stand there?"

Officer Johansson yelled back to the teller, "listen,

sir, I have to be cautious in how I do this. No one

knows how someone will wake up, especially in a

strange place. Just give me a cotton-picking minute,

please!"

Johansson then leaned over and softly shook Jessie's shoulder to awaken her, and said, "please wake

up miss. The bus station is closing, and you have to

leave."

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Jessie groggily began blinking and attempted to focus on her surroundings by rubbing her eyes. Upon

seeing the uniformed Officer standing before her,

she immediately sat upright.

"I'm sorry, officer. I did not mean to fall asleep. I

didn't know where to go since I don't have any family or friends," said Jessie.

"Follow me," said Johansson in a commanding

voice.

For the sake of appearances, the Officer placed

Jessie in the back of the squad car. Once inside the

vehicle, Johansson asked Jessie if she remembered

her from earlier in the day.

"Yes, mam, I do. Your Officer Johansson, right?"

inquired Jessie.

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"Yes, you are correct, and if I recall, your name is

Jessie," responded the officer.

"Yes, mam," answered Jessie.

"Jessie, I know that you have nowhere to go. Would

you like to stay with me while you get on your feet?"

offered the sympathetic Officer.

Jessie replied, "yes, thank you for your lovely considerate offer, I would love to stay with you as long

as I'm not putting you out."

"Oh no, do not worry about putting me out because I'm hardly ever home. You are more than

welcome to stay as long as you need," responded Johansson.

Parked in front of the King Street apartment buildings, Officer Johansson handed Jessie the key to her

dwelling.

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"Here is the only key to my residence number twoten. Lock the door and please feel free to help

yourself to any food in the fridge. When I get off, I

will call so you can let me in," said Johansson.

"Thanks again, I'll see you in the morning," replied

Jessie as she accepted the key and exited the squad

car.

Upon entering the apartment, Jessie immediately

noticed that Johansson had an expensive taste and

was a bit of a clean freak. There is a black leather

sofa sitting up against the far wall with a matching

set of coffee and end tables next to it.

In the kitchen, the sink sparkled without a single

dirty dish. Upon opening the fridge, Jessie noticed

plenty of fresh fruits and vegetables. She pulled out

from the refrigerator a head of lettuce, a cucumber,

tomato, and some green onion and made a salad.

Before leaving the kitchen, Jessie tidied up after

herself.

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Back in the living room, Jessie used the remote to

turn the television on before she sat down on the

sofa to eat. After eating, Jessie washed her dishes

and looked for the bathroom so she could shower

and dress for bed.

While showering, Jessie became aroused when the

pulsating warm water from the showerhead hit her

clitoris. For better access, Jessie laid down and

propped her legs up on the tub. With Jessie's free

hand, she kneaded the nipple of her left breast gently. As Jessie's passion grew, her breathing became

erratic. Jessie arched her back in orgasmic bliss and

loudly panted, crying out in ecstasy as her body

spasms, "oh God, oh God, Yes," until the orgasm

reached its climactic ending!

Feeling totally relaxed and refreshed from her

shower, she adorned herself with a pink colored

nightshirt that had a bear centered on its front. Before shuffling over to the leather sofa to lay down,

she grabbed a blanket from the hall closet. She felt

nice and cozy, huddled under the soft coverlet. Jessie smiled and thought to herself, "Wow, I no

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longer have to worry about being raped or abused

in my sleep." Soon she drifted off into the first tranquil slumber she is had in many years.

Jessie is startled awake at seven in the morning by

Johansson's phone ringing.

Groggily Jessie answered, "hello."

"On my way home. Be there in about thirty

minutes," said Johansson.

Jessie folded her blanket and placed it back into

the closet where she had found it. Then after changing into a sky-blue terry cloth sundress, Jessie busied herself preparing a breakfast surprise for her

host. The kitchen filled with alluring aromas as she

cooked a fantastic veggie omelet and some amazingly moist blueberry muffins.

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"Wow, something smells amazing," exclaimed Johansson as she entered the apartment!

Jessie motioned her hand toward the dining room

table and said, "sit, please, I wanted to give you a

proper thank you. You are so wonderful, allowing a

virtual stranger to stay with you. Now sit down, relax, and eat while it's hot."

While eating her scrumptious breakfast, Johansson said, "tell me more about yourself, dear."

Jessie had no clue why she felt so comfortable and

safe with Johansson but still began revealing the details of her horrendous past. After Johansson had

listened to Jessie's painfully sad life story, the Officer just sat there with tears in her eyes.

A few moments later, Johansson opened her arms,

welcoming Jessie into an embrace and said, "come

over here, honey."

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While cuddling an emotional Jessie in her arms,

Johansson said, "please feel comfortable enough to

call me Suzie. We should be on a first-name basis

since we are now roomies."

Jessie broke down crying, releasing some of her

pain. She felt comforted safe and warm while Suzie

held her and soothingly stroked her hair.

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Chapter 10

First Lesbian Experience

Four months later, both women had the day off

and planned to go to the beach. While Jessie and

Suzie walked barefoot along the coastline, they noticed a group of coed girls playing volleyball. When

they asked to join in on the fun, the collegiate

women graciously obliged them. After playing two

games with the younger girls, Suzie and Jessie continued their stroll along the warm surfside. After

taking off their shoes to feel the warm squishy sand

under their bare feet. Jessie noticed a large pod of

dolphins swimming offshore and pointed them out

to Suzie.

Jessie grabbed Suzie's hand and led her to the

water's edge giggling like a young schoolgirl and

said, "come on, Suzie, let us go in the water."

The two women ran out into the rolling waves and

frolicked in the salty surf. While Jessie and Suzie

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laughed and played in the brackish water, the dolphin pod swam closer out of curiosity. Absorbed in

their own horseplay, Jessie and Suzie never notice

the two visitors that circled them under the water.

That is until an infant popped, it is head up between them. The pup chattered away with high frequency clicking noises. When Jessie reached out to

touch its head, the calf's sibling came up out of the

water next to it. The two women joyfully played with

the calves. Soon their momma gracefully jumped

up out of the water. She soared above their heads

and chattered clicks and squeaks for her babies to

follow. Immediately, the pups obeyed their mother

and swam off to join their pod.

That evening as the sun went down, its rays produced a magnificent display of bright colors upon

the gulf waters. Mutually, Suzie and Jessie decided

to bring their day to a close and strolled hand in

hand toward the car. Suzie had contemplated how

to tell Jessie she had fallen for her without scaring

her off. She suggested to Jessie that on their way

home, they stop at a local Italian restaurant.

Beautiful Italian operatic music softly played inside. The tables were covered with the finest of

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white linens and had lit candles glowing in their centers. A rustic fireplace's embers glowed and danced

in a mirrored bar reflection over in the far corner.

A maitre d walked up to escort them to their table.

For a romantic ambiance, he sat them near the fireplace and took their drink orders.

Their stomachs rumbled as their senses were

teased by the fantastic aromas of Italian dishes being

prepared in the kitchen. Their maître d arrived with

a bottle of their most excellent Chardonnay, breadsticks, and marinara dipping sauce as an appetizer.

Taking charge, Suzie placed their order of two

small portions of a savory soup called Aglaia to

compliment the main course of delicious, Acquah

Piazzas.

The two women bantered back and forth about

their day at the beach. While patiently waiting for

their food, they consumed two glasses of wine and

began tenderly playing footsie under their table.

Upon completing their scrumptious meal, they felt

the effects of the two-and-a-half bottles of Chardonnay they had polished off. Luckily as an officer of

the law, Suzie had enough snap to call for a taxi to

take them home.

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Finally, inside the taxi, Suzie mustered up the

courage to give Jessie a quick peck on her lips. Jessie did not pull away as Suzie had expected. Instead,

she reciprocated and leaned in and sensuously explored Suzie's moist lips with the tip of her tongue.

Before changing lanes, the taxi driver checked his

rearview mirror for oncoming traffic. He then noticed the two women all over each other. Periodically during their trip, he spied on the two women

going at it through the mirror. When the sexually

excited cabbie pulled up to their destination, he

shifted his crotch to make himself more comfortable. After several minutes of more spying, he

cleared his throat to get their attention and told

them they had arrived. Suzie handed their flustered

chauffeur fifty dollars and told him to keep the

change. Outside of the cab, the two women clung to

one another as they stumbled to their apartment.

Safely inside, Jessie excused herself and went to

shower. Suzie busied herself, preparing a romantic

atmosphere in the bedroom. After lighting a few

strategically placed scented candles, she sprayed

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some fancy perfume onto a deep blue colored silk

scarf. Suzie then put it over the lampshade beside

the bed for a romantic blue-colored glow. For the

last touch, she turned her CD player to one of the

many romantic playlists she had collected over the

years.

When Jessie exited the bathroom, Suzie became

lost under the spell of Jessie's curvaceous body. Jessie giggled and spun around, wearing only a white

plush towel and a smile. Playfully, Jessie opened her

towel, temporarily exposing herself to Suzie before

covering herself again. Droplets of water dripped

from Jessie's freshly washed hair, causing her breasts

cleavage to glisten in the candlelight. It was only

when Jessie said it was her turn to shower that the

lustful spell was broken.

Astonished over Jessie's gorgeous body, she gazed

upon her for a moment longer before walking off to

shower.

Jessie quickly noticed the romantic setting that

Suzie had prepared. Even though she felt a tad bit

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nervous, she dropped her towel and slipped under

the soft blue coverlet.

Inside the bathroom, Suzie pondered. She knew

tonight must be extraordinary since it would be Jessie's first time being intimate with a woman. Her

mind continued wandering with thoughts on how to

create a unique experience for Jessie.

When Suzie finally exited the bathroom, she

found Jessie singing along with one of the songs

from her playlist. Jessie smiled and playfully patted

the bed. Her eyes followed Suzie as she dropped

the towel and slid in next to Jessie to cuddle.

While laying inner twined and snuggling, Jessie

tenderly moved her hand over the contour of

Suzie's body with a light and sensual touch. Suzie

shivered in response. It was not long before Suzie's

dominant side took over, and she told Jessie to turn

onto her tummy. Once Jessie was on her stomach,

Suzie straddled her and erotically massaged her

silky-smooth shoulders and back. Her firm fingers

penetrated Jessie's muscles, which caused her to

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softly moan out in pleasure. Jessie felt as if she was

floating upon a fluffy white cloud. An hour later,

Suzie wrapped her arms around her and gently

coaxed Jessie onto her side. Lovingly, Suzie

spooned Jessie from behind. While cuddling, the

two women took turns singing to one another.

Jessie desired to gaze into Suzie's hypnotic eyes

and turned to face her and said, "I just love your

eyes, Suzie, I get lost so easily in them. When I

look into your eyes, I see nothing but peace and

love. There have even been a few times that I foresaw us side by side in rocking chairs on a porch in

our old age."

"If that's your way of saying you love me, I love you

too," replied Suzie.

Propped up on her arm, Suzie leaned down and

tenderly placed soft butterfly kisses from Jessie's

forehead to chin. This drove Jessie wild with passion. In a split second, she was on top of Suzie playfully nibbling on her lips and probing her mouth

sensuously with her tongue. Even though the

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assertiveness stunned Suzie, it was nice to allow

someone else to be the aggressor for once. It was

not long, though before her true dominant sexual

nature kicked in. She flipped Jessie once again onto

her back and climbed on top of her. Straddling Jessie, she pinned her hands firmly yet lovingly over

her head. Pressing her full weight against Jessie's

warm body. She passionately kissed Jessie's mouth,

ears, and neck before exploring her magnificently

full soft round breasts and perfect pink nipples.

With the intent of protecting herself, Jessie's mind

kicked into overdrive. Her past with Mark had

caused her great torment. However, recently her

heart had slowly opened to the idea of love again.

The possibility of becoming involved romantically

with a woman excited her.

Suzie tantalizingly teased Jessie's nipples with small

flicks of her tongue before gently suckling them one

at a time. With her free hand, she explored every

nook and crevice of Jessie's body. Somehow Suzie

kept finding erogenous zones never encountered by

anyone else.

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This was the first lesbian encounter of many to

come between Jessie and Suzie. Jessie's heart was

beating faster as her breathing became erratic. Suzie

lowered herself to Jessie's secret pleasure region.

Upon submerging her face between Jessie's legs, she

kissed and licked the inside of her creamy thighs.

Jessie's body writhed in a pleasurable delight.

Aroused to a heightened state, she could not stop

wiggling. Suzie could tell Jessie wanted her. The

dance of anticipation was in full swing. Jessie, a willing, eager participant, thirstily awaited the moment

Suzie would take her into euphoria. Suzie's warm

moist tongue began its magical dance upon her already swollen love button. When she gently

squeezed and tweaked her nipples to attention.

With an ignited passion, Jessie screamed out in

pure delight. This encouraged Suzie even more.

Her hand wandered down to Jessie's freshly shaven

wet mound. Inserting two of her most extended fingers deep inside Jessie's hungry vagina, she moved

them in and out slowly and gently at first. Then

Suzie began to feverishly finger her while rubbing

her g-spot. Jessie had never experienced two different orgasms in unison before. With her body satisfied and weak, she laid there relishing the moment.

Jessie panted to catch her breath as her head spun

in many directions.

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Not knowing what to say or do, she placed her arms

around Suzie and snuggled her. Suzie placed a light

whisper kiss on top of Jessie's head.

"Jessie, I know this was your very first same-sex experience. I feel the need to tell you that tonight was

not about reciprocation. However, it was about me

introducing you to intimacy with another woman.

One which loves you immensely, "said Suzie.

In a weak sleepy voice, Jessie responded, "I want to

pleasure you as well. Just so exhausted from orgasming multiple times that I do not have the energy to

move. You are not disappointed in me, are you? "

Suzie responds while yawning, "it will be ok, my

baby girl."

Both women soon drifted off into a deep, sound

sleep.

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When the alarm buzzed at four a.m., The two

women slept through it peacefully intertwined lightly

snoring. It took the sun's warm glowing rays shining

into the window to awaken Suzie. She awoke, satisfied, and rested but late for work. Suzie hurriedly

dressed in full uniform and tiptoed out of the apartment to not disturb Jessie. When Jessie finally

awoke, she busied herself cleaning the condominium and gathering laundry to wash.

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