Love is Part VI

“She is both, hell fire and holy water. And the flavor you taste depends on how you treat her.”

― Sneha Pal

THE SENSUAL SEDUCTRESS 🌹

I’m a show stopper that’s for sure. A bit mischievous as well. I have expensive taste . A total dare devil and a charmer . It’s been that way and a lot of my spark has very little to do with my flesh. My sensuality and beauty is derived from within and it shows. I’ve never had the biggest boobs or most curvaceous figure. Still. . . all eyes are always on me. It’ll always be that way when you’re a goddess and of ancient royalty.

I am fully aware of my sensual nature. I know that most things about me give off specs of sex appeal . Intentionally or unintentionally. Whether it’s the melodic tone of my sweet voice or the way my hips sway with a swiftness when I walk, dance or express myself. From my smile to my genuine joy and laughter. My kindness and compassionate nature is what really makes me sexy. I love that my energy is felt wherever I go. My uniqueness is seen and gawked at. I enjoy knowing that I can have any and everything I want without having to do much to get it. I trust my feminine nature and when I am relaxed and conciously aware of how my feminity works, I simply attract what I desire. Being a woman is a privilege that I don’t take lightly.

I have a tendency to be overly flirtatious. I’m a Leo. I just believe in innocent and playful dialogue. I’m infamous for vulgarity or coming off as unrefined. I’d be lying if I said I’m working on it. I say what I feel and I’m not afraid to make people with prude-like energy uncomfortable. Risque is an understatement.

I’ve battled with accepting all aspects of who I am out of fear of judgment. Social media has become a weird place for me now. What I post gives people the impression that they have a false sense of closeness to me. People who watch me believe they have a true understanding of who I am, what I do and how I feel.

I’m well known for pushing the envelope on social media considering my love for bare skin and controversial topics. Some people may think that I’m easy . I get that. It’s all apart of the master plan. You can look… but you can never touch. See the thing is , I’m a story teller. An actor/entertainer of sorts . It’s my purpose to create fantasies and scenarios . What seems to be an act of me dishing out my dirty laundry and busting it wide open for the world to see, is really me expressing different parts of myself while still living a life in the real world no one knows anything about.

I’m the woman who is labled as easy and untamed when, in all actuality, I am unobtainable and inaccessible . The woman you crave and desire , but can never have or claim. I’m unreachable. Now stick that in your juice box and suck it .

Choosing myself is the greatest form of self-love. I over pour , over explain and over complicate so much in life that I’ve just learned to finally say “fuck that shit”. Truly. Setting boundaries is vital. I no longer say yes when I really mean no . Respect is major to me . You don’t have to love me, but you will respect me. I live by that.

I exit connections silently these days. To keep my peace and power. In the past, I always believed I could fix everything and everyone until I realized that everyone needs to learn in their own way and that we are all operating with the set of tools we’ve been handed. That’s why I had to cut people out of my life! Too many people are only focused on utilizing the tools they have or have been given. Me? I’m gonna go stock up on some new and more updated tools and an entirely new tool box. We move differently over here.

I no longer do the same thing expecting different results. Insanity and I have never been on the same scale for long. Self-love is choosing yourself. When it’s hard and when it’s uncomfortable. No one is capable of loving me the way I love myself and I no longer expect anyone to. That’s why I’m a knockout. I bring myself to the table.

My last heartbreak was more of a final breakthrough for me. I find myself swaying in and out of third party dynamics . It’s a generational thing. I suppose the women in my family don’t feel worthy enough to have husbands and boyfriends of their own or happy homes in general.

I’ve mastered the art of being a unicorn. There was a point in time where I even believed that I wasn’t meant to experience a love of my own in this lifetime. It felt as if my purpose was to just come into already established relationships to either shake things up to wake them up to the changes they needed to make to face the reality of their dynamic or to help them heal and deepen the love they’ve already established . Then I’m off on my own again once the thrill dies down.

Through my last relationship I learned that it is possible to love and be in love with more than one person at once. In fact, it is beautiful to experience. I see the expansion that comes with polygamy. The balance that can be cultivated. The bliss of the sexual heights that can be reached between 3 people that are truly open to expansive love and not just the idea of it. I learned that my heart is my superpower and that falling in love with me is easy simply because of how easily I fall in love.

The reflections in third party relationships become greater. The success is tripled. The lessons learned to elevate the soul are expedited. But when it’s ugly , it can get dark. The insecurities, doubt, lack of communication, resentment, jealousy, lies and deception can take an innocent situation and morph it into a painful wound that can’t be tended to with sweet words, gifts or a bunch of I’m sorry’s.

I’m aware that my lack of commitment plays a factor in this cycle . When I’m with a man I crave a woman . When I’m with a woman, I miss having closeness with masculine energy. It is already written that the greatest love for me to experience in this life isn’t with just one person. Perhaps not even just two.

God. If you want me to have 3 husbands and 4 wives then just say that.

GODDESS DIVINE ❤️‍🔥

This phase of my life is my selfish phase. I hope this phase never goes away since I am having so much fun getting to know and love myself more and more each day.

My mindset makes me powerful. My body, my confidence, the way I carry myself. The way I treat others and see beauty in them makes me the powerful woman I am today. I’ve always had fire, I’ve always been great. I wish for others to see the same in them.

I find self pleasure to be a huge form of self care for me. It’s incredibly liberating and freeing and reminds me how amazing it is to feel and be a woman. I am incredibly grateful for my body and learning to love it more.

People are drawn to my confidence. I love meeting new people and filling my positive energy in the room. I love lifting women up so they know they are loved and beautiful.

I love my skin the most. Freckles are a reflection of the night sky, I’m honored to show their reflection.

My last heartbreak is something I learned to no longer dwell on, but I will say that I learned it’s much more fun to bite back when someone hurts you. I’m not a woman you mess with. I am the villian when no one is watching.

I needed to forgive myself, for not seeing the goddess that was inside me before. She’s always been there, I forgave myself for thinking any lower of the woman inside me.

Some advice I would give to my younger self about love, “you are everything lovely about this world, love yourself first then love others, lift others up with you”.

THE BALANCED NOVA 💫

I love that I have a strong resolve to be eclectic. I have a genuine idea of who I am and where I’m going. I shamelessly express myself. I have a want for perpetual drive.

My father broke my heart when he disowned me. I strived so hard to make him proud just for him to look me in the eyes and wish me away. Nothing else has compared. I fought to make more of myself regardless. In doing so I learned I can overcome any obstacle.

I need to forgive myself for holding onto so many things I didn’t need to. I am learning to be less concerned about what other people think of me after choices I made to better myself.

Self love is constant evolution. To never stop growing. I love working with other women to empower them and myself. Self-care leads to a better quality of care for others.

I enjoy having a warm soak with a bath bomb. I put my ears just below the surface of the water while calming music plays.

THE MOTIVATED MILF💋

I am a goal driven mom who is stepping into her independence and her sexy skin .

Is it bad to say my truth is still in writing? So much newness has been surrounding me that I am not sure who is what and what is where and why! I know I’m an entrepreneur. A sexy millionaire who is happy being a provider and a free spirit! I'm passionate, caring and empathic. I'm a talker. I'm a learner who is striving to discover the highest version of myself.

Heartbreak. What happened? I don't even know how to answer that! I saw a man who made me want to be better but in the process we both lost ourselves trying to be what the other one had requested and instead of loving ourselves and growing as a team, we neglected ourselves and in return turmoiled our relationship! Lost respect and trust for one another. Tore each other down instead of lifting each other up. How have I healed? I haven't. But I'm damn sure in the process. I'm learning to relearn who I am and what I want. And I've learned you can't fill somebody else's cup when yours is empty. Don't change who you are for anybody. Grow with and together with that someone opposed to growing into what they want. Y’all are a team but also still individuals!

I set boundaries with others and do what makes you me feel good. Gained the ability to say no! To stop playing captain save-a-hoe and start playing captain save my own ass and prioritize my goals and my dreams. To stop allowing my future to be guided by temporary feelings and clouded judgement from those surrounding me.

I am breaking generational curses. Teaching other woman to stand up for themselves and be confident! Showing women that investing in yourself is worth more than gold. Showing women it's okay to be who and what you want and sometimes forcing things to stay is the very reason your life is stagnant and lifeless.

Love and relationships don’t always go hand in hand. Know where the lines are drawn. Embrace the sexual side but protect your energy. Have fun! Work hard. Never back down and prioritize YOU! Love with all you have but be aware of those who are undeserving. Embrace your baddest self! Your truest, most authentic self.

THE GODDESS OF TEMPTATION 💄

I am the Goddess of Temptation. This version of self embodies both light and dark feminine energy that I’ve been channeling. Balance is key and at times I’ve struggled and still do, but both light and darkness are embedded into our DNA. Without these two key ingredients there wouldn’t be a me. I’m learning to embody all sides of me and how to embrace them as well. This allows me to embrace both sides of me and love them completely with no judgement involved. Allowing all parts of me to shine and not giving a fuck about what others have portrayed me to be. The alluring goddess in me allows me to truly bask in myself to grow and boost my confidence, as well as reassuring myself that I am truly DIVINE.

My intuition makes me powerful. At times I struggled with trusting my gut feelings but it never steered me wrong once. My intuition is so strong at times I start to have deja vu . I love that my intuitive skills have grown so strong because it helps me with connecting to my tribe. I no longer fall into repeating cycles of chaos, depression, and heartbreak because I listen closely to what downloads I’m receiving from my guides and higher self.

Seduction is another attribute that makes me powerful, channeling my sexiness allows me to bask in my light and dark femininity. Using this allows me to feel powerful when connecting with others because of how captivating I can be to get them to do what I want.

Self-love means to love every layer and aspect of self. Not letting opinions or perspectives of others affect you because they do not truly know you. It is pouring into your cup and letting it overflow into others so you’re not worried about depleting yourself for anyone.

Self love is standing strong for yourself and trusting your intuition so that you can blossom! Not letting anyone take your dignity away from you. Letting yourself shine so bright no one can dim your flame. It is loving yourself & others unconditionally. It is allowing yourself to be fed the poison that people have to offer then returning it with love and delight.

I utilize my feminine/sensual nature to cause a shift in my community by creating all natural and organic feminine/skin care products for women and men. This allows the community to know that it’s okay to use herbs and organic things on our bodies to allow our skin to be healthy. Big corporations are only worried about the financial aspect of things and what people consume. I want to help people, specifically women, know that it’s okay to care for your yoni. Doing womb healing is necessary to heal the trauma our wombs have been through. My idea for creating products for my divine goddesses turned into a passion I have that I can expand into so much more.

Bringing women together, centering womb care as their main priority to live a healthy life as well as having a community to resonate with. Potentially finding your tribe and going back to old ancient practices. My main focus is allowing women to know that Mother Nature provides everything that we need in order to live. My goal is to bring women together releasing and healing past trauma through the bond of caring for our heavenly portal of life.

I need to stop being so hard on myself. I can be my biggest enemy at times and it can be hard to come out of that energy. I have to remember that I’m that bitch and exude the confidence of just that. People come for a reason and go like the seasons, but me? I will forever stay and it will forever be that way, nobody can ever tell me differently or make me feel less than. Letting people see my purest self will help me become the best version of self. Giving my inner child the most fulfilled feeling there is.

It is okay to be the authentic version of yourself, allowing others to see the good, bad, and ugly sides of you. Uncovering all masks and basking in the beauty of self. Telling people to fuck off for judging you for being you. My truth is what sets me free! No one will ever know you like you know yourself. It’s necessary to be fully comfortable with everything about you. Every aspect of self needs to be loved and nurtured like plants need to watered. Never give up on yourself because everyone shines in some way. Grasp onto passion giving yourself your all.

My last heartbreak took a toll on me but I learned how to channel my compassionate side during this experience and truly putting my heart on my sleeve. In my last relationship I battled a lot of trauma with myself and my significant other. We had a roller coaster ride of emotions running through both of us and at first the flame of our love was so high until it came to an end.

I felt like I was battling a never ending cycle of insecurities, high emotions, and past trauma from last relationships. The man I shared my love with was sharing his love with another woman leaving me to feel as if I was in a love triangle. There was no honesty in the relationship and if there was, the truth was twisted until It couldn’t be anymore. As a highly intuitive woman, I felt as if I was going crazy! One side of me wanted to believe and stay with him and the other side of me couldn’t bare to even look at him. The relationship was built off of facades and it came tumbling down like the tower card in tarot.

On my journey of love , I came to the realization that someone was draining me and sucking the literal life out of me. When I came out of the high of love it clicked for me. He wasn’t the one for me and all of this needed to happen for me to grow into my higher self. In relationships they are mirrors. The people that surround you are merely a reflection of your deepest self. They surround you for a reason whether it’s good, bad, or unexplainable. It allows us to take a good glimpse at ourselves and uncover what it is that is affecting you in this way and how to truly change. Transmuting the pain into a gain. I wouldn’t say I regret my past relationship because it made me face myself, my fears, my insecurities, and some of my deepest emotions.

In order for me to reclaim my power I need to forgive the negative attributes of the relationships I created in the past. Reflecting and forgiving myself and them for the mistakes that happened. The trauma endured from the pain I’ve been through can finally be released whenever I please although the fear of letting go of these memories haunts me. I allow peace to flow through my body in order to heal. Compassion needs to come into play when letting every aspect of myself know that it’s okay to let this pain go.

It is okay for me to forgive myself and others for the pain that we’ve all endured during our experiences, this pain no longer serves us in our journey. Compassion for the mistakes and outbursts are necessary in order to truly heal. I have to remember to be soft and delicate with myself. Putting myself first and loving myself unconditionally will forever allow me to spread my story and have a positive influence in this world. Truth will set myself up for a beautiful journey of healing, wisdom, and spiritual enlightenment.

Author & Curator of Love Is:

Trashae Bradley: IG:Theethereal_empress Facebook:Shae Layanese’ Email:[email protected]

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Vixens:

Leslie Hacker: Instagram: @lesliehacker13

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