Little did she know

Around a seashore, dark outside with outbreaks of rain mizzle, the sea breeze gently touches the soul of an all-broken and tired girl wearing a pure white dress which touches her knees like the waves of the sea.

What was she doing there? Maybe, searching for answers to all the questions that remain unanswered or depths she was going to end her life in the depths of the ocean where no one could ever find the piece of her existence or maybe where she could find her peace. Flowers blooming in the spring remind her of how happy she was when she was all detached from human attachment, when she was confined to her imagination world , no worries, no crying , just smiling and living the best of her life .

Now she decided to end the curse that was put on her life by losing it. She took one step closer to the sea and felt that finally someone was waiting for her to hold her tightly, to love her with all her flaws, to consume her with all her worries. But wait again. She thought of the moments that she spent and counted as the most lovable moments of her life, dumping her blessing them as blessings that were making her heartache so badly that made her cry all night, making her whimp like a street dog .

Oh my god! What can I say about her, the most innocent one or the most fooled one, that still she was not able to figure out that although what happened was all her wish, but now it becomes a hurtfull memory whom she wants to forget or just wants to loose her memory of 2 month 16 days wait actually not only of that period if counted correctly it will be of around a year where she first laid her eye on that.

But why did she choose this place to end her sorrows? Like, what is so special about this place? Because this is the place she dreamt of when she was in her worst phase, when she cried and thinking of him sitting beside her and comforting her by seeing in her eyes saying that "Don't worry sweetheart you got me I am here all yours", it's all okay now, your time for waiting me is over now, we are here together. She smiled at him without saying anything, just looking into his eyes, grabbing him tight all along and hugging him and saying softly near his ears, I am glad you came back." That's all I ever wished for that all the whole time.

But was she literally wanting to say all this ? " No" still the questions were rising in her heart, but the gentle and soft touch of him made all her questions fade away like the sun appeared in the mist.

The only question she wanted to ask was just to rinse off all the love she had for him if she ever asked that-

"Did you ever love me "?

"Did you ever think of me while we were not together" ?

" Did you ever shed a single tear while thinking of me" ?

These three questions all washed off all the joy she was feeling or maybe she knew the answer to that or she was afraid of hearing the "no".

What would we think of her "selfish "because she wasn't able to find out the truth or did she still want him, as she clearly knows that he never loved him because he didn't even ask her to stay at that night while she was going to leave him. She says to him that "she is going to end all the things between them" and he just replied "what are you saying I don't understand" and left her alone that night when she looses all her world that she ever that was him .