Younger women today have different views on relationships, love and marriage than older generations. Even so, I share my story in the hopes that it will help someone who really wants to save their marriage. In my opinion, the one thing that wives should be careful of is seeking advise on their marriage from single friends. Keep your friendships separate from what goes on in the privacy of your home, and you will cut down on a lot of drama.
It was your typical fall Wednesday in late September 2017, except nothing about that day turned out to be ordinary.
Here we go. End of another long day. Here we go. Yup. The bickering. Oh, hold on. Yup, there is the thrown glass and... hold on. Queue the screams... Blast off. Here we go. It's a real shit show now. How we came so far in the first place is... I was going to say a miracle, ha ha ha. Oh, I do amuse myself. Someone has to, I guess. Oh yes, that's right, we were fighting. I haven't stuck my tongue out at her in a while. Not since we were kids, I don't think. Maybe I'll try that. She'll get a kick out of that. Maybe then she'll laugh. Gosh... When was the last time she laughed? Oh, the thought of it hurts a little. I had to be partly to blame. I mean... yeah, I was partly to blame. But it was all consensual, always. I wouldn't hurt her like that, not ever. But she's still hurting. Hurting me. Gosh, what did I do?
When my husband and I started trying for a family, we both went into it with this fantasy of a perfect life, with no fighting, no hurt feelings, tons of sleep, and no frustration or resentment EVER. I think every parent has this idea—or hope—in their minds. We both assumed that we knew what parenthood would bring, and we weren't afraid in the least. Shortly after our son was born, reality hit. He missed the majority of my labor thanks to his brand-new-barely-a-month-old job, and I didn't realize how angry I was at him for it. Sure, it was (mostly) out of his control, along with the fact that he was now working much longer and more erratic hours, with an hour long commute each way, but that didn't stop me from feeling neglected.
I’ve never been the type to want to “mommy.” I never even pictured being one ever. Having children of my own was just a joke I never wanted to come true.
We were getting ready to close up. I had worked a double to cover for a coworker and I was so ready to go home when I hurt the bell from someone walking in. "You have got to be kidding me!" I thought to myself but smiled for the customer! I recognized him right off the bat. His sister and I were friends for a short time when I was in high school before we had a falling out so I did meet him maybe once, and saw him in passing a few other times, and he went on a date with my sister once. That was a disaster to say the least.
Disagreements are inevitable. There is no possibility of going through life with someone and agreeing 100 percent of the time. BUT when you do disagree, it doesn't have to involve yelling and door slamming.
So, I was looking in the mirror not long ago and I had some major self confidence issues arise. Anyone else have that problem??
“Janice, are you still with me?” The therapist breaks my concentration.