Stream of Consciousness
Hurt someone with the truth, but never make them happy with a lie
The shard of mirror trembled slightly in Mara’s hand, reflecting a fractured image of her own tear-streaked face. It was an imperfect reflection—distorted, broken, but undeniably real. In her other hand, she clutched a fragile, crumpled piece of paper, its edges worn from countless folds and unfolded attempts to smooth it out.
By Mahayud Dinabout a year ago in Confessions
What I Didn’t Say at the Funeral
I didn’t speak at your funeral. I sat in the second row, behind Aunt Mel and your church friends, and watched the slideshow flicker across the screen—your smile looping in grainy photos, your laughter reduced to silence. I kept my hands folded in my lap, fingers digging into my own skin to keep the tears from falling too soon.
By yasir zebabout a year ago in Confessions
I Was Homeless at 19. This Is What No One Tells You.
I still remember the night I slept behind the grocery store like it’s tattooed into my skin, the smell of sour milk leaking from the dumpster, the concrete digging into my hip, and the way the cold seeped through my hoodie like I wasn’t even there.
By Ava Writes Truthabout a year ago in Confessions
Dear Brain, Please Stop Being So Loud When I’m Just Trying to Live
Dear brain, Can we talk? You’ve been really loud lately. Not in a screaming, dramatic way—more like a constant, low hum of “What ifs” and “You shoulds” that never really go away. You’re always busy up there, even when the world around me is quiet.
By The Healing Hiveabout a year ago in Confessions
Confessions of a Neurodivergent Black Girl: The Bad Built Thot. Content Warning.
"You ungrateful, bad built thot!!" That was the first I had ever heard of an insult like that. We can call him Skylar. He was my second love. A romance that was as unpredictable as the weather in New York. It was so turbulent, so messy, and yet at times, so beautiful.
By Rissabout a year ago in Confessions
Confessions of a Neurodivergent Black Girl: Shame. Content Warning.
"Can't you do anything right?" Shame permeates me like the sound of a church bell in the streets. It moves through my body like a snake, wrapping itself around my heart and my brain. Then it squeezes.
By Rissabout a year ago in Confessions
How Celvim Collagen Naturally Boosts Skin Elasticity and Hydration
So here's the thing - three years ago, if you'd told me I'd be banging on about collagen supplements, I would've rolled my eyes so hard they'd have fallen out of my head. I was that person who thought it was all just expensive marketing nonsense for people with too much money and not enough sense.
By David Anejaabout a year ago in Confessions
"The 5 Seconds That Broke Me — and Then Built Me Again”
It was just five seconds. Five seconds of silence after the call ended. Five seconds that shattered my world. I still remember the vibration in my pocket. I was walking home after a tiring shift, lost in thought, wondering if life would ever become more than just survival. The call came from my brother. I picked it up with a tired, “Hello?” There was silence. Then a breath. Then: “Bhai… Ammi… gone.” Click. No explanations. No chance to ask how. No time to even scream. Just silence. The kind that doesn’t echo. The kind that deafens. I dropped to my knees in the middle of the sidewalk. The world around me kept moving, but I was frozen. People passed. Cars honked. A child laughed in the distance. But inside me, everything had stopped. She was my world. My reason. My late-night dua. The voice that would still whisper, “Beta, did you eat?” no matter how far away I was. And now she was gone. That night, I didn't cry. I couldn't. I sat in my room, staring at the wall. My phone buzzed — condolences, texts, calls — I didn't reply. I couldn’t. Something inside me had shut down. My heart felt like it had been unplugged from life. Around 3 a.m., I heard the Adhan for Fajr from the mosque nearby. I hadn’t prayed in months. Life had pulled me so far from Allah that I didn’t even recognize myself anymore. But that Adhan—it didn’t feel like a call. It felt like a whisper to a soul that had been buried. With slow, robotic movements, I made wudhu. Water hit my face like lightning—cold, painful, but awakening. I laid out the dusty prayer mat from under my bed. It still smelled like home. I stood for salah. And as I said, "Allahu Akbar", the dam broke. I cried through the entire prayer. Not tears of ritual or guilt. But the kind of crying that empties you. The kind where your chest convulses, and you can’t breathe, and you whisper, "Ya Allah, I’m broken. I don’t know what to do." For the first time in years, I spoke to Allah like He was right there. Because He was. That moment didn’t bring my mother back. It didn’t erase the pain. But it gave me something I hadn’t felt in years: clarity. The next few weeks weren’t easy. I’d break down without warning. I’d wake up hoping it was all a dream. But one thing stayed constant: I started talking to Allah every day. Not always in formal dua, but in whispered thoughts, in journal entries, in the silent moments of prayer. I started listening to the Qur’an again—Surah Duha became my lifeline. > “And surely your Lord is going to give you, and you will be satisfied…” (Surah Duha, 93:5) That one verse made me believe again. That maybe this loss was not the end, but a turning point. I began praying all five times. Not because I was perfect, but because I needed Him like oxygen. I volunteered at a nearby shelter. I found comfort in serving others the way my mother used to. Slowly, pain turned into purpose. And I realized something: I had built a life that looked successful but was hollow inside. My mother’s passing forced me to confront the void. And it was only in that brokenness that I found the space for Allah to rebuild me. People say time heals. I disagree. It wasn’t time. It was sujood. It was that moment in the night when I cried like a child and whispered, “Ya Allah, I have nothing left but You.” And that was enough. Today, I still miss her. I still have days where I fall apart. But I also have days where I smile for no reason—because I know she’s with her Rabb, and I’m on a path back to mine. All of it began in those five seconds. The five seconds that broke me… and then built me again.
By TrueVocalabout a year ago in Confessions
