Pilgrimage through the Concrete Jungle

Disclaimer:- This saga is being written with the Self-indulgence and Entertainment Intentions. I sincerely implore the readers to view this with “FUN to Read” perspective, not any kind of “Personal Attack”.

The Spiritual Start of the Pilgrimage dates back to 1st of October 2022, but the Real, Physical one started 2 days ago on 31st of January 2023.

I clearly remember all the Emotions I was going through the Night before the Commencement.

Pilgrimage- though as Fancy it may sound, in today’s world, for a Common Man, it’s commonly known as going Homeless without any Money, leaving all upto GOD to Make you or Break you, which exactly I knew this was gonna do to me, realistically speaking.

I saw it coming months ago, regardless of any attempts I made to prevent it, I felt, deep down, a part of Me wanted to go through, at least once, this so-called Horrifying Experience.

I knew it would become my Sobering Reality when I ll wake up on the 31st.

Romanticizing the situation to my utmost capabilities, I chose to look at the Silver Linings hidden all around the dark abyss.

I had researched the cheapest places around the city for Food and Shelter but one look at the Bank Account threw the “Cheapest room for rent” Idea out of the window, so that compelled me to first try to scan out places I can straighten my back and more-or-less sleep for the night.

and with the accumulated Snow all over the city, with the Temperature dropping over -25 degrees celsius at night and with lingering covid restriction forcing stores to close down for the night, even the 24hr open places. I gotta say, all these dire conditions were twisting my arm to avert my gaze from the “Bright side of things”

With not being able to Sleep much, I woke up to the Dawn of the “Pilgrimage”.

The Next Day...

A Rollercoaster of Emotions started to Envelop Me as I was prepping up my Venture-into-the-Dog-eat-Dog-Society Survival Bag-pack.

Anxiety of the Unknown

Uncertainty of sense of direction due to No Network Phone

Concern about finding a Place to spend the Night with just few Dimes

Fear of not knowing how long I can Survive like this

Terror of Dying like a Stray on the Streets

Unease of encountering a Dangerous Fellow Human

and so much more, all thanks to my Relentless Overthinking Mind.

Above all this, My FAITH in the power of the Universe didn’t let the Flame inside me Die.

Few Medicine, a Water Bottle, a SwitchBlade, my Journals, Laptop, spare change of Socks, and Double Layer of Clothes to tackle the Cold…

with all my Faithful Companions, I stepped out of the House and into the Wild.

with few dollars in the Bus Travel Card and few bucks to buy food, the 1st Day started with Exploring the City I have been living in for 2 Years, of which I knew nothing about except my route to Work and a few bars n pubs.

After staying Inside the house for 8 months, the first obstable I faced was the MUDDY SNOW all over the Footpaths, which kept sticking onto my Boots and long enough walking resulted in moisture getting inside the shoes, wetting my socks.

Could have avoiding walking too much if I just had the online GPS service, instead all I could do was walking for long, getting in any Bus I could find and then having to backtrack my steps after asking the driver for directions, and while talking I would tell them that I became Homeless by choice to find meaning in my Life, to go on an Adventure because I got Bored working 9–5…deep down knowing, how desperately I am trying to remind myself to look at the Brighter Side of the things BECAUSE Everytime I would be all ALONE walking along the Road or Miss a Bus or the place I planned on finding refuge for a while was closed, A LOUD Voice will scream inside my Mind-

I CAN’T TAKE IT ANYMORE.

I WANNA GO HOME.

I WANT GOOD FOOD, A BED AND A WARM BLANKET.

HELP ME. HELP ME. HELP ME. this will keep on ringing in my Ears.

then, I would start planning a Easy way out of this HELL…

Dark Side of my MIND will whisper, “If YOU Lightly Stab someone, you ll find a place to Sleep in the Lockup, away from the Cold or better yet Lightly SLIT your wrist someplace where people can find you quick and you can spend the night at a Hospital.”

Shaking off the Dark Desires, along with the MUDDY SNOW underneath my Shoes, I would Forcefully Jump-Start my Morality and Religious Beliefs to give me some COMFORT.