Moment of Truth

Meg had decided on Kenny, although she still loved Damon, it was time she moved on. If he had, she seen no reason for her to not. The weekend hit, Friday night, she spent it all alone, Saturday she’d spent the day cleaning and focusing on school work, that evening she was watching a movie and Damon messaged her. She was in shock and didn’t know what to do, so she opened the message, nothing special, it just said “Hey”. Meg contemplated if she wanted to go down that road again, but then realized she’d regret it if she didn’t, so she replied, “Hi”. Seconds later she’d gotten another messaged from Damon, it was a very long message, which Damon doesn’t do long messages. Meg opened the message, and he basically was apologizing for the way things went down between them, he told her that she was the best thing he’d ever experienced and that he was an idiot for letting her go. Meg didn’t know how to react as she was in shock again, and this was where she needed to decide if she believed him or if it was a trap. Still skeptical and in disbelief, she decided to take the road to heart break yet again, and continued the conversation. They talked most of the night, til bed, and then again all the next day. She asked if they could talk, he agreed; Meg had had so much running through her head the past few months that she went into a deep darkness, scared to love someone again, questioned if love was even real. Resented the idea of couples, everything Damon had made her believe in was gone and Meg wanted him to know. They met up, she talked to him for about 40 minutes and he just listened, but then she said something that hurt him bad and he teared up. Meg felt bad for what she said and hugged him, he then started rubbing his fingers on her thigh and she felt the peace once again that came from his touch and he kissed her. One thing lead to another, and Meg agreed to one last time with him, knowing it would make her crazy the next few days, but she felt guilty and thought it would make things better. She took as many measures as she could to try to prevent attachment, no eye contact, no kissing, hoping that it’d let things be meaningless for her because she knew that it would be to him. Meg had already known, deep in the back of her mind, that Damon just wanted her for sex, she’d known for months. He’d told her more than once that sex with her was better, and different than anything he’d felt, he liked feeling like he meant something. Meg was too blinded by love to see what was truly going on, and once she realized she didn’t want to accept it. She’d always thought they were soulmates, but he never saw her worth anything more than a filler for his emptiness. Meg discovered an emptiness of her own without Damon, but it didn’t matter to him, so she decided to step away. Meg still thinks of Damon daily, he’s the last thing she thinks of at night, first thing she thinks of when she wakes up. She no longer questions if love exists, because she believes Damon is her one true love, and she will never give up on him.