Dear boys

This letter is not from an actual letter written to anyone from me. However, it does reflect real negative emotions that I have felt from things done to me.

Dear boys,

I now realize I'm worth more than you believe I was worth. I was treated like your whore. You pressured me to the point I felt I had no choice. I had no rights to a say in what you did with me, or if I was even ready.

I am worth loving. I deny loving you. I have a chance at loving someone else though. I am worth being with someone who will treat me good.

What you did was abuse, whither I was reluctant or not. It was wrong what you did to me. I wanted to die. You almost ruined my life. I let you get away with it because I was embarrassed. I was angry.

I won't let you ruin me. You haven't ruined me. You may have broke me then but you don't know that I'm now stronger. I hated being there with you. I showed pride and got rid of you. No matter what, I will never take you back.

There is only one of you not guilty. But the rest of you are not even worth being my friend. You are trash, not me. I won't let you control my life. I won't let you get me down. You will never win. There is still trauma due to what has been done.

There is nothing you can say to me. I will not have anything to do with you. I will not be your friend. You will never find anyone who will stay with you. I will find true love one day. I will not ever let you be the only ones for me.

I take back my dignity. I take back my rights. I give nothing to you. You will one day have your rights taken away from you. You will have your dignity taken from you. You will not ever have me again. You will never be worth anything to me .

We are far beyond through. You are far away from me. I will never let you have me as your possession again. You will never own me again. I used to believe what you did to me was normal. I used to believe it was ok what you did. I realize now it wasn't. You won't ever control me again.

You have shamed me. You have shamed yourselves. I will not ever let you hurt me again. I will find love. I will get out and let go of my shame. Not every man will do this to me. I will find a man who will accept me and love me for who I am.

I wish to never have you in my life again. You are untrustworthy. I will never put my faith in you. I despise your existence with a passion. You have degraded me as a person.

I have a chance at true love in my future. I have a future. Get one for yourselves. Get yourselves a grip and a life. I am beautiful no matter what anyone says. I am special and unique. I will not let you take over my life. I will put my trust in someone else.

I love myself and will be loved by someone else. You are not worth my time or energy. I've gotten a lot stronger and will fight for myself until the end. I am loved by new people around me. You have not won.

Sincerely,

Me