Current State of Things

Let my tombstone read “I tried” when I die/ That means I did my best in my eyes before my demise/ Did everything that I could, within my power to succeed, go up like a dick and rise/ Gave it my all, so they’ll be no regrets in the grave where I’ll lie/ But the fact remains I’m still alive/ Doing everything I can to make ends meet with a strong will to survive/ Gotta put food on the table for my two kids/ So I work 9 to 5 to provide, making sure I do this/ No excuse when it comes to raising children, no loose ends/ Trying to make passive income and build my own kingdom, as I pursue this/ See, I learned the hard way in this life that there’s no true friends/ It’s either you persevere or you don’t, don’t be clueless/ If you don’t check on me, hit me up or care for me now, don’t if I’m no more/ I don’t pretend to be something I’m not, so I won’t go hardcore/ Other than being a man and handling my business, why would I act hard for?/ Married life ain’t all it’s cracked up to be, but I manage it/ You can’t be as you once were, a bachelor, and no true freedom, that’s the disadvantages/ But you get someone you can spend the rest of your life with/ And fact of the matter is that’s priceless/ Life’s kicking my butt like crazy/ Demanding that I make more money/ On a never ending search for cash, finding ways to prevent being bummy/ Rent taking away most of what I earn/ That counted money is limited, it goes like calories I burn/ See the reality is earned money is old and it keeps you broke, that’s what I learned/ One must strive for multiple streams of income/ One must be an entrepreneur, be business minded , no one’s at fault but you, I need some wisdom/ I acquire it as the years go by, so I’m pleased to know where it stems from/ Paying bills endlessly like I owe the system/ Well, utilities are based on my usage, I know, but it’ll still show I’m pissed son/ Taxes are taken out your pay check before you get it/ I don’t even bother to look at the gross because I can’t spend it, and that’s so upsetting/ When you use your card and it declines/ You’re tempted to go hard and try several times/ As you do, what you’re trying to buy still don’t get paid for/ People around looking at you funny, it becomes embarrassing, know the feeling? I’ll say no more/ It’s frustrating, like life itself when you’re struggling/ It feels everything be falling apart sometimes, kinda like cookies crumbling/ I try to keep my head up and not get fed up/ But it’s easier said than done in actuality, but when you fall get up/ Stressful nights at work slaving for Amazon/ Coping with it, it’s amazing how I keeping going on and on/ Best job I ever had, so I keep racing to it when it’s time to leave home, am I wrong?/ I believe they’re better days ahead/ So until then I’ll storm the weather and get this bread/ Dad is gone forever, won’t ever forget his effort/ He did a lot for me, true story, most definitely, word!/ He was the heart of the Ardey family, make no mistake/ He held it down until old age caught up with em, taking no breaks/ He was fearless, bold, he loved life and love God/