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Poem 22 from my chapbook "As Glamorous as a Kidney"
No longer can I sit down
And feel strange to
Myself.
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Today is like any day.
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Our eyes open and it’s
Either knowing what to do
Or trying to figure
It out.
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Only one thing is certain.
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We dance to the rhythm of
Chaos and sing for order.
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Love be damned.
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Love be blessed too.
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I’m a lover once given
The position.
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I’ll always be Mama and Papas
Little accident
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As I will always be the seed
Who was given a chance.
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I think of all the hours
Which have passed.
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These are my fragments.
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Visions strobe
In
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And
Out
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My cigarette burns without a voice.
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Retrowave plays through my computer
As always.
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Trevor Somethings electric sound comes from
Out the speakers.
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I have this entire garage to myself.
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The floor is cold.
Everything is fucked up.
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Nothing is going to be right.
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Yet, somehow the empty body is
Arise knowing perfection is only
A dream
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The dream is flying out to Florida
At any time and hitting Miami.
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The dream is going anywhere at
Anytime because I’d like to see.
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The dream is a nice home with a
Billiard table in it. As well as
A room to work in.
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The dream....
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I gave Orlando a small reading in
The last few minutes I had on break.
“I feel your poems are so relatable”
He commented once I finished.
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For me it is hard to respond to such
A statement because I’m doing as I
Feel and writing as I can.
It’s good to know someone finds my
Work substantial and accessible.
It is part of my goal and to achieve
It in a tiny way is almost surreal.
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I have no real confidence.
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I function to the best of
My abilities.
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Only one thing is certain.
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Shaky hands and
Nervous body.
A commonplace
Feeling.
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If I wasn’t so damned focused on
My work and past experience I’m
Almost sure we would have made it
Further.
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Another day rolls into night.
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Another night will tumble
Over into morning.
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you will always mean something
To me
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While I sit in the spot looking for
An exit, a proper goodbye.
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I’m moving on
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I think of all the hours
Which have passed.
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I think of all the hours
Which have passed.
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I think of all the passions
Burning within and how it can
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Only be kept in one place until
It explodes in my face.
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This morning offers nothing
More than the same grey
Skyline and watery
Memories.
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Life,
Work,
Life,
Writing.
Ink as it appears.
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As a functioning alcoholic I realize
What kind
Of fire I’m juggling in my palms.
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My corruptions get the best of me
At times but I never act as if
They are not there.
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I can be a bastard.
I can be a piece of shit.
I can be a combative little devil.
I can be a pervert.
I can be a shadow.
I can be a drunk moron.
I can be a destructive child.
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My work is not gentle
But it is soothing.
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This artist continues to work with
What’s been given.
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By most mornings I’ll
Have to start picking
Up pieces.
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For those with an imagination
I salute you.
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This page only shows that
I existed at one time.
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Our days are still dissolving
Second by second.
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There is nothing else but to
Pursue the dream.
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I function to the best of
My abilities.
With a chemical brain,
Black lungs,
Racing heart,
And a tough stomach.
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The dream...
The dream…
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Words will never be capable of
Describing what it means to me.
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