Allow Yourself to Feel

Those who follow my thoughts surely see me as a suffering person, or even a pessimist, many times.

I know it may be an easy judgment to make, given that I often speak of pain and what it causes me.

I am strong and a warrior of light. The fight against my shadow and all that it has produced has been quite hard, but at no point have I stopped believing or lost my faith in who I truly am and what the universe has reserved for me.

I bend but don't break, even in the midst of so much darkness. The light that guards me is very strong, and even though I often feel alone, I know it's just an illusion and that I always have a brigade of light beings by my side who have accompanied me on this journey.

God only gives us what we can bear. The greatest tests and challenges are given to those he feels are prepared to receive them. At some point when I was about to break, God ignored me, but in a last moment of despair, he always showed up and brought me a beam of divine light that always put a smile on my face and made me see that everything is truly a healing and preparation for what is to come.

I have always felt different but blessed. I feel too much, and much of what I feel has had a great influence on me. Energy has a great effect on my being, and throughout my life, I have been learning more and more about it. The energetic influence that exists in everything, how everything is interconnected, and how everything affects everything is undeniable to me. We are truly one in this universe, particles of energy interconnected by what I call the glue that binds us and some know as love. Love, or God to me, is that glue that unites all energy and transforms it into a universal whole. A whole that expands every second in consciousness and makes the entire universe advance towards an origin that is confused with an end.

We live in a time without time, in a space without space, we live in a circle of feeling that will take us not to the point of arrival but to the point of departure, we live not to learn, but to unlearn, not to complicate but to simplify. We live in essence to discover our essence.

We spend lifetimes looking up at the sky trying to find God, when he has been living inside us all along. I know it's hard to elevate a mere human being to a divine being, but it's not about an illusory deification, it's the purest truth of what we are, made and created in his image, not in our humanity but in our essence.

Therefore, being negative or positive is just a human emotional state, the essence of what we are is the peace we seek so much. It is being just because we are, it is absolute peace without ups and downs, without pain, without fear, without any more searching than whatever may be. It is reaching that divinity that we are in consciousness and forgetting about it because of the opportunity that God gave us to come here and feel.

Don't condemn yourself for feeling, negative or positive, we are here for that, to feel and have human emotions that will help us in that consciousness that will one day make us return home because as good as it is to live and feel, our eternal dwelling place is not here.

As someone once said, "we're here to feel absolutely everything. We're here to jump, not to hold on."

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