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Lani P

Aloha! My name is Lani and I am a university student here in Honolulu, Hawaii. I've always dreamed of writing and sharing my thoughts with others out there. I am still a beginner but I do hope you enjoy what I have to share. 

  • Lani P
    Published 2 years ago
    Hidden Feelings

    Hidden Feelings

    Right now I’m just laying in bed, at 12:13 in the morning full of insecurities. The thing that is on my mind and constantly tugging at my heart are my thoughts about my relationship. I don’t think I’ve ever loved someone as much as I love my current S/O. Although I love him very much—like any other girl in love—I’m still full of doubts and insecurities about our relationship. I worry about things I should have confidence in. I can’t help but think that there could be a girl that is more worthy than I am for him. I feel that perhaps one day, I may not be good enough for him. I worry that one day he’ll see me and realize that he doesn’t love me anymore. The possibility of falling out of love and in love with someone else truly scares me. I’ve seen it happen a few times in my family and I’m scared of that kind of heartbreak. So many scenarios run through my mind so often that I put myself into thinking that that is what’s in the process of happening now. My insecurities about myself don't help at all. I spend so much time thinking about it when I am calling with him that it puts me into a quiet mood. A mood where I don’t know what to say or talk to him about, leaving our phone calls silent and still.
  • Lani P
    Published 2 years ago
    Hesitation

    Hesitation

    Today my favorite quote—or the most relevant—goes like this: