Using reusable bags. Purchasing reusable bags has been one of the biggest game changers for me. A lot of times when I go grocery shopping, I go alone, even if my haul is relatively big. Because of flying solo, the thought of carrying anywhere from 11 to 35 plastic bags into my apartment, is genuinely exhausting, and the risk of paper bags tearing at the handles, has me running in the opposite direction. Ruling out the two options at the store leaves me with my trusted reusable shopping bags. Not only are they considerably sturdier, they tend to be a lot bigger in capacity than those at the store, meaning less trips back and forth to my car, and an overall easier night of grocery shopping.
I can’t love anyone after you. It’s weird because I feel completely ready to move on. No, I don’t just feel ready to move on, I know that I am ready. There have been numerous guys after you, and I doubt there will be any less any time soon. So why can’t I love anyone after you? Good question, because I don’t actually know.
Sometimes depression is really warranted: when friends bail, leaving an aching heart and lonely schedule, or when lovers disappear and stop responding to your calls. But then there are other days, days like today, where nothing at all causes the depressive state; it just happens. Yesterday was Monday, so the depression made sense, and the weather was shitty too, which would also warrant a lowered mood. But today, today is Tuesday, one day closer to Friday, one day farther from Monday. The weather isn’t awful, and the sun is shining. So why? Why, today, is the depression once again eating away at my flesh and bones like a hungry, blood guzzling, monster?
You don’t naturally learn how to re-trust people. It’s a skill, an elaborate task you must put all your thoughts and efforts into attaining. And, even when you do think you have learned the art of trust, only specific people seem to ever truly earn it from you.
I like running. Running away to the woods is particularly my favorite. There is something about lying in the grass on a dewy morning and watching the sun rise through the treetops that takes away the pain. I wouldn’t have imagined my life to come down to this truthfully, I was full of life and energy at one point. Funny how that changes when one person decides to leave.