Glass Box
Excerpt from "(dis)connection", by Matt Martin
**NOTE: This is an excerpt from a play I wrote called (dis)connection. "Solitudo" is a representation of Matt's loneliness and isolation.**
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(Lights up on MATT, who finds a sheet on a wall at school. He stops. SOLITUDO is behind him.)
SOLITUDO : No, no – what do you think you’re doing? We just figured out magic and now you want to audition for a play? What, you trying to get in with the artsy crowd?
(MATT raises his arm to sign up but SOLITUDO stops him.)
SOLITUDO : You won’t be able to use your cards there. Please -
MATT (snapping) : Just stop.
SOLITUDO (aback) : …stop what?
MATT : Why do you always try to stop me? Do you not want me to be happy?
SOLITUDO : Of course I do, I just –
MATT : Then why can’t I write my name down, huh? What’s the worst that can happen?
SOLITUDO : You could end up making a fool of yourself.
MATT : No I won’t.
SOLITUDO : But you could. Or how about if you just fail? Huh? What then?
MATT : I mean –
SOLITUDO : When you did your magic before, nobody cared if you sucked or not. To them, you were just some little explorer, in some stupid hobby. You were a kid. But now, they expect you to be a visionary, a free thinker… someone who builds something great.
MATT : But I’m only a –
SOLITUDO : I’m trying to keep you safe.
MATT : From what?
SOLITUDO : From the real world. I want to protect you. To keep us safe and happy. Don’t you want that?
MATT : Yes, but I need to connect with people in order to do that.
SOLITUDO : You’re too much of an idealist.
MATT : And you’re too much of a know-it-all.
SOLITUDO : You need to figure this out.
MATT : I’m trying.
SOLITUDO : No you’re not! You’re diving blind!
MATT : I’m taking a chance!
SOLITUDO : You don’t know how people really are!
MATT : Well neither do you!
(Pause.)
SOLITUDO: You know…
being close to you
is like watching you
in a glass box.
Some careful craftsman
put you into this specific cage.
This cage where
I can see your pain,
but I cannot help you.
I can see you go insane,
but there’s nothing I can do.
I can put my hand on the glass,
tell you that I’m here,
and that I’m a seer
into your heart,
I can still whisper
“I am always here”
when you’re falling apart.
I can say it,
but somehow the box has dampened your hearing,
the glass has tinted your vision,
because you never see
that I mean it.
I’m forced to watch life
throw you against the glass,
and demand your feeling from you.
I hate seeing you give it up.
It robs you of your happiness,
vandalizes your smile,
and hands you a fake one in return,
and all I can do
is watch,
watch it all happen.
I cannot conjure any words,
I cannot commit any action,
I cannot conceive anything
that will save you,
I only pray you
get through it.
I wish
I could take your spot
in that glass box,
that clear hell,
I wish that
whenever life pins you down
and demands your happiness,
I could go on in and say
“This one’s on me”,
I wish that
I could conjure words of hope,
I wish that
I could help you cope,
I wish that
I could get you out,
shatter the walls,
let the fragments of depression
hit the floor,
so you soak in life
as it was meant to be absorbed.
But I can’t.
I can only be a supervisor.
So I continue to stare
into this glass box,
hoping one day,
I can break those locks.
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About the Creator
Matt Martin
Canadian Playwright, Poet, and Performer.
Let's write our own happy ending.
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