My Imposter Syndrome Is Still Hanging Around

Introduction

I publish these pieces every so often, partly to let you know how I am feeling, and partly to let others know that others feel this way, and it is fine if you feel like this, and you will get through it.

The music is "You're No Good" by Betty Everett, because Imposter Syndrome makes me feel that I'm no good, amplified by platform treatment.

That Bloody Imposter Syndrome

It is a part of the psyche that tells you you should not be here because you are not good enough, your work is not good enough. I want recognition, and when I don't get it, that just confirms that my work is no good. I want recognition to be explicit, not implicit, that is, I want a Top Story or a Challenge placement, but for that, I know I am one of eight hundred thousand Vocal Creators. However, I seem to see many of my Vocal friends getting multiple recognitions, and that makes me feel proud for them, but I don't deserve to be associated with them.

Then I read the positive and supportive comments on my stories and realise that my work is excellent and the people that matter know how excellent my work is. They confirm my belief in myself.

I still feel that when I produce a short form piece, I am being lazy, then I will see a piece get a Top Story that I don't see as anything special and again, imposter syndrome really kicks in, because I am sure that if I wrote something similar it would not be recognised.

Conclusion

While I have all these issues, I am now in a mindset where I write and publish regardless of what the Imposter Syndrome tells me. I recently published three poems in a row, and that used to be unheard of for me.

So I know I am good, my Vocal Creator friends know I'm good, so all is good.

Thank you so much for reading.