In My Mind ~ Surviving with ADHD

There are so many misconceptions of ADHD no one takes it seriously. It's so simpler to Autism it should be in the spectrum. I don't share this because I'm always afraid I'm won't be treated equally to my peers, or co-workers. On job applications I have checked off I don't wish to say when it comes to the disability part. I hate the word disability, so much so it's close to loath. It's like it's inviting me to be mistreated or bullied.

From the experience I have been learning recently I have added to my advocacy towards men, I want to be an advocate for people who are diagnosed with ADHD, and mental illness. I want to write a bill to outlaw ECT in all fifty states.

We all deserve to be heard everyone in this country is so quick to lock someone up instead of taking the patience and help. All it takes is just a few words to change someones life. I have good intent, I know the struggles I face with. I struggle with staying on task sometimes, if I don't say it out loud I forget it, I forget to text my husband a reply to his answer. Sometimes I feel like I don't belong and I hide it because what's the use it's not like I can drive down the street to see my best friend Tasha. It's not like I run to my husband for snuggles, sometimes taking on the world can hurt a lot.

I wish my daydreams were my reality...

When it feels like my mind is a walking zombie moving slowly while others are speeding faster then I amit hurts. I think the pain of knowing in social situations I want so badly to heard that I get irratated. I just withdraw from everything.

Truth is I learned, I need to rely on myself to remind myself of the simplest of things. Good thing I have many notebooks that need to be filled in. Learning how to process with these facts it's not easy.

Trying to survive all this for a much larger picture can be very daunting. However, I know anything is possible. I realise lately I have been getting annoyed more over the tiny stuff.

I truly realised who my true friends are, I still don't want to share these kinds of stuff about me. I don't even know why I told this to Kyndall Lewis she hasn't' even known me for a long time.

Trying to change my mindset due to society norms hasn't been easy. The fact is in all Societies mental illness is a foreign concept. The struggles to be understood is real. Thing is I learned I mustn't let others define me. True friends are very rare to find. However, I am lucky to have found a true friend in Saint Lucia who has been checking on me very often Tasha Jn Paul.

The struggle to connect with others in my own country has been so hard recently. As a woman, studying to be social worker at Cleveland State University it is very refreshing knowing I don't have to socialise so much with my peers. It's refreshing know that I'm not the only one struggling with this.

I've not given up learning about socialising in this word today, it's not so bad. I'm still waiting for my textbook for Child Development, I'm so glad that the professor doesn't go into depth on book material but it was cheap thankful. Let's just hope that no one steals my psychology textbook I ordered off Amazon used book.

This is live footage of Ontrac employee Delivery Guy stealing my order my laptop I purchased on Walmart.com Walmart will not be refunding me even though I showed them proof. 318.00 down the tubs now.

For anyone who knows what this is like can you please take the time to donate so I can replace my laptop for school work, and work that I am doing on vocal, and YouTube. It will be nice if my vocal Family could do this for me every little bit counts.