My Thoughts About Marriage in 2025

It's been nearly 20 years since I graduated from high school and the majority of my friends have since gotten married and had children. I'm very happy for them and glad that they're raising their own families. As for me, I'm still single and have the desire of getting married one day. One of the reasons of why I'm still without a romantic partner is because of a man's unrealistic dating expectations. The struggles I face are being "too old", whatever that meant to most men. I don't like the word old being used in a negative sense towards me, because what they mean by that is even if I'm a few years older than they are, they'll still find a way to use my age as an excuse to reject me. Ageism in the dating scene is real. Honestly, I take offense to a random man calling me old. Sure, I don't look like my age, but I'm still a human being with feelings at the end of the day. Also, the biggest complaint that most men have with me is that I don't smoke or drink. It's not to say that there's anything wrong with either one of those things. I have never smoked a day in my life, and I stopped drinking alcohol about a decade ago. I can find things to do in order to have a good time. While we're on the subject, another complaint I get from most men is that I don't go to parties or the club. If you love going to these places, good for you. Most men would see me as too boring and uninteresting, honestly, I'm more of a homebody. Watching my favorite movies and TV shows. Don't get me wrong. I'll go to places like the arcade or the movies every once in the while. Those are the kind of places I love going to and want a potential partner to enjoy those things with me. Finally, most men pass me over because of my overall appearance. I'm not the most attractive man in the world, but I believe every man should have a chance at love. Growing up, I was bullied for my dark skin and told that I looked ugly. Looks are subjective and beauty fades.

As someone who's on the Autism spectrum, dating has been even more difficult for me now in 2025. Several years ago, it was somewhat easier for me to attract potential men. Now, I believe it's mainly because of men's unrealistic and ridiculous high expectations when it comes to dating. They want a man with a car, blue eyes, 6-pack abs, and a successful career. I don't care what kind of career a man has or what he looks like. The question is would he be able to treat me with love and respect? Also, I'm more interested in a man's personality than their looks. In one of my previous stories, I've stated that I don't have a preference when it comes to a man's race. For the most part, I've dated and been in relationships with white men, but open to other races. Some men need to stop being so picky and focusing on superficial nonsense. I believe that's one of the reasons why I can't find a man.

Several months ago, I deleted a board on Pinterest where it was dedicated to weddings, wedding themes, and anything wedding related. The reason was because of the uncertainty of ever finding a romantic partner, but I might consider creating a new wedding board again. I like a man who's romantic and loves to spend time with me. I want to be an equal to my potential partner. I'm starting to grow tired of hooking up with men. Sex is nice, but I'm serious of finding the one. I could care less about finding "The perfect man". There's no such thing as a "perfect life", because it doesn't exist. People think that relationships, specifically marriages, are supposed to be blissful and perfect, which aren't true. Every couple will go through some sort of hardship or difficulties at some point in their relationships.

I just have to work harder to attract the right men. There are physical changes I'd like to improve on. Unfortunately, looks are the main thing men look for in other men. That's just the reality of dating. Is it right? No, but that's just how it is. I struggle with my appearance, but again, I have the means of making those changes. I'm responsible for my own insecurities and no one else. I'm nearing 40 and want to take my health more seriously. I don't have any serious illnesses, but staying active is important to me. Three to four times a week, I walk to and from work, making sure I get some exercise. However, I'd like to get stronger and fit in order to improve my chances of attracting even more men. If all goes well, it might lead me to a potential match and somewhere down the road, marriage. I'd also be fine being with a man and us just being committed to one another without getting married. Like a Goldie Hawn and Kurt Russell kind of relationship. I've never been married before. I almost got married, but I won't talk about that. I hope that every man finds someone to love. Wish me luck, everyone.