160 milligram poem-
Bam
160 milligrams
Straight to the dome
Returning home
*
Is all music the same?
Is this from where we came?
Here we go
Overload
*
Right where I’m supposed be
Fits perfectly
We are in sync
And on the brink
*
The brink of breaking through
After the concoction is brewed
Dissociate to reflect
This is how I can connect
*
Now I know my purpose
It’s come to the surface
Thank you ketamine
You’ve revealed what was unseen
***
“The drug ketamine, used as a ‘dissociative’ anesthetic, can produce subjective reports of conscious awareness outside the body, as can various other psychoactive drugs.” — Stuart Hameroff
I started receiving ketamine infusion therapy at the beginning of this year. I did this because traditional medicines were not working for me. My psychiatrist had tried every depression medication out there and none seemed to do the trick by itself. I didn’t know what to expect and so my first session I was a little anxious, but in a good way. It wasn’t so bad because I have tried other psychedelics before, just not ketamine.
Ketamine is a dissociative drug and is used to treat many things, including depression, anxiety, PTSD, bipolar, chronic pain, and much more. For me, my suicidal thoughts went away immediately. I also saw the benefits it provided my PTSD, depression and anxieties. I wasn’t yet diagnosed as bipolar, but you can imagine that it helped immensely with my agitation.
I receive my treatments at Klarisana. Klarisana’s mission statement is Rebuilding Lives. They use intramuscular ketamine infusion therapy to help their patients do just that. When I first came to Klarisana, my mental health was steadily on the decline. I was in a deep rut that I could not get out of by myself until I found this new place.
It’s not a conventional treatment, but a very rewarding one. It was as if all the stars aligned, and I was right where I was supposed to be. I met with the greatest doctors and physician’s assistants, and I was ready for whatever was to come my way. I had my playlist picked out, and they provide you with a comfortable and private room. They also monitor you closely for safety and comfort.
My first session, I received sixty milligrams. They then slowly build you up over six sessions to a level you are comfortable with, spread over the course of two weeks in an hour and a half sessions. After those sessions, you can receive a maintenance session as often as once every three weeks. Klarisana also does therapy sessions combined with ketamine lozenges as well. This is also a very beneficial therapy.
It was an experience that is unexplainable, so you must do it for yourself to know. The best way I can explain it is more about the aftereffects. It slowed down the world so I could catch up to it. I was better able to process my emotions and regulate my mood. My constant suicidal thoughts subsided. I could focus more on what I wanted to do with my life. I found my purpose through these sessions.
I wasn’t writing very much last year because of my depression, but after ketamine, my creative juices have never been stronger. I even self-published my poetry book. I have so much to share with the world. I can honestly say that having purpose gives meaning back to my life. I work constantly on my mental health and writing also provides me with further tools to battle my depression and suicidal thoughts.
I think I will have a lot more to say about my ketamine experiences in the future. For now, that’s enough to digest. I hope I piqued your interest enough to investigate these services in your area. See what it can do for you or a loved one. It might just save a life like it did mine.
About the Creator
DMTakeshi
DMTakeshi has zero credentials and these poems have a high probability that they are the ramblings of a person with a serious mental illness. Enjoy!
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