Your entitlement is showing and it isn't pretty
Why do you still get to be you while you took away that option for me?
A man bet on the colour of my underwear
And here I am letting him walk me home
To nowhere and back again
It has been 4 years since it began
And still we lay nowhere near the end
One by one
Everything I had thought to explain
Washed away into a sea of endless grey
Hoping for colour to return once again
That night we lay so high
On strings and embers of warm yellow light
Hanging in the balance between what was and what would be
There would be nothing left for me to see
But in the moment
For an instant
Warm yellow turned to bright orange
As it swirled within glass and into your hands
You swallowed it whole
and off we went
into the dark of night
there for a moment
I felt safe and wanted
until suddenly you let go of me
and warm ember turned to daring red
one step closer and one step back
I could smell the warmth on your breath
you are not a good person
I know that now
How can it be
That each expression took on new meaning
Ignorance is only bliss
until pain erupts from the blind spots
erupting, waiting, burrowing
life felt warm, bright and varied in your presence
ever since that night of embered effervescence
each day fades to blue then grey
an endless platitude
of time wasted away
what was, what could and will never be
washed away with the swirl of a glass
and venomous green which seeped from your lips
find me here proud to be free
in swarms of colour for others to see
bright oranges, purples, reds and greens
everybody's happy to be rid of you
and me
who wished for a day where colour would return
to vivid states of fuschia and auburn
Am left branded
as better off
while grey washes over me
with tides of strength and sorrow
buried deep into each other
while you are left in technicolour
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