You Do This to Me
Poem on the Struggles of a Narcissistic Relationship
I look at you
and my heart just beats, beats, beats...
Beats my soul up so bad, my body's on fire and my veins will explode.
This is what you do to me.
You could grant me the ability to crush mountains
to silence fire
to roar the tides
to calm the winds
With just one glance
You do this to me.
And what am I to do?
To just stand here and take it.
take it all
take all you give me and build it up.
I can create and innovate so much with what I have now,
from you.
You do this to me.
And I do
I build it up
Weeks after weeks of smiles,
laughter,
and affection.
I get high on all you give me.
All this false hope that I can walk off a cliff
but live,
and fly!
But I fall, I implode, and I get crushed,
by you.
This is what you do to me.
It's all still and time moves slowly now...
Every moment to you is a decade through my eyes.
I did it.
I said it.
It was small, to me
but it must've hurt you.
And now I'm falling off this high,
I reach the end and you crush me.
"I'm done", I hear
You do this to me
with just one look.
A sigh, I hear.
You grasp my chin up possessively,
n look down through me and the salty moisture on my face
"I'm not done with you yet, love," you smile, self-righteously.
I levitate
Higher n higher
to our cloud nine reality.
Your smile relives me
your forgiveness brightens my face
your affection surprises my senses
your love melts my remorseful being.
I'm fine, okay, better, good, great, perfectly yours.
I'm happy again
I'm happy
Am I happy again?
Am I happy...?
Am I happy being so high up?
...with you?
I begin to fear heights.
This is what you do to me.
About the Creator
Desiree Stumo
I'm a 20 y/o college student who's hoping to successfully express my emotions and opinions in 600 words or more~ I love organizing, daydreaming, and getting excited about cartoon and anime characters. i@dks_senpai T@Willa2Wall t@Volita_san
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