Writing in The Dark

Hiding away,

Afraid to say,

How it Hurts,

Everyday watching,

As dreams float away.

I don't want to play,

Silly games of chase.

Wishing I could erase,

This face from the mirror.

Going to the hole in my heart,

To try and restart,

While falling apart.

It's Time to depart,

I have to think smart,

I get confused at this part.

I start to use,

Any excuse, Or situation,

Vindicating my abuse.

Feeling I Always lose,

Burning the fuse.

triggering the cues,

No more love to use.

Seeking the juice,

So I can choose,

To rise above,

And free this recluse,

Trapped in patterns of abuse.