Wrestling for Clarity

I reach my hand out and wrestle for calm.

Panic is a tricky thing and it takes people unawares. You never know how you are going to react. And—each situation can be different—how it affects you, even based off previous stressful situations gives credence to the panic—or levels the head immediately.

What is your panic, and how can I calm it?

My panic gets the best of me often. It is usually everyday stresses that overwhelm—too many things going on, too many people, too high expectations (often self-inflicted)…

Is the panic real, like an emergency situation that you must act quickly to contain? Or, is it intangible, something you can’t put your finger on. Every-time you grasp for it, your fingers pass through smoke, while it sits on your chest weighing you down and making it hard to breath.

What is your panic, and how can I calm it?

Or is it you that needs to calm me?

Indifference—is the calm following the panic. Why so much and then so little. Why should I care and why should you? Loss of purpose after brimming with too much. It makes naught sense.

Finding that purpose again, once lost, is difficult. It is like searching through an empty hallway echoing with silence. The silence is so loud it doesn’t allow room for anything else.

So fill your time with all those projects that you have wanted to finish. Start one at a time, or start multiple and work on them overtime.

Then work on creating a schedule for your day. Give yourself a bedtime, wake up early and watch the sunrise. Eat good and nourishing food. Don’t drink alcohol. Try meditation—they say it is good for you. Take walks, do yoga, dance, spend time with your favorite human and all your animals.

Meditation—keep trying, even when all the memories overwhelm. Brief moments of clarity will come through. I promise.