I fake smile at myself,
to tame my anxious self.
I listen to lofi,
to calm my wild.
I avoid looking at my reflection,
like a thrift shopper.
running away from the cashier,
I deep breathe.
in and out,
out and in.
only to find myself losing it.
I call names, Ram,
Jesus and even Mohammad
Questioning whether my far cry
will reach their universe
I try to stay productive,
because I am professional
but what I don't realize-
my anxious self is
more professional than i
it overworks every damn night
I try to count from 1–100
hundred to one
now my counting speed is
faster than formula one
I go to Spotify, iTunes
And listen to Joe Rogan
But nothing makes sense
To my frosted mind
I close my eyes
To collect my thoughts
The moment I feel calm
My slack pops up and
my mind starts running around
I have cried in office restrooms
My Ola and Uber prime
also during my elevator rides
Thought of how it may perish me
But I am still smiling and
Working with my anxiety,
as a colleague, I don't like.
About the Creator
SB
Observing and writing.
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