Wonder

I hate how I wonder

I wonder about how people are really doing

I wonder if someone misses me

I wonder how my life would be if I didn’t do substances

I wonder how my past relationships have left me haunted

I wonder why I cry so much, is it even normal to cry this much?

I wonder if I’m acting my age, if I’m acting right?

I wonder how I’d look like if I was skinner

I wonder a lot of the time

And I hate how I wonder

I wish I could wonder in other ways