Wonder

I lay in this room alone

And I wonder why me?

What could I have done differently?

What did I miss?

I tell myself I’m not good enough for anyone.

While everyone tells me I’m worth it.

My worst enemy isn’t the people around me.

But the people that live in my head.

They make me wonder about the little things.

They make me wonder what life would be like if I wasn’t here.

But I wonder why I listen to them and everyone.

All I do is wonder.

Is that what I’m meant for?

Or maybe much more?

The voices get louder by the day.

It’s harder to let them stay away now.

I can’t even sit in silence.

I wonder what my life would have been if I had just avoided this.

I wonder what life would be like without the voices.

Maybe I can stop them?

No I’ve tried.

I wonder if one day they will go away?

I just wonder…