Will I ever?

What if I ruin everything?

What if I can never say what I truly want to?

I wish, just for once, that someone could teach me how to let it all out.

When I hold back the words I want to say,

My insides cry and scream.

I feel like shouting, pulling my hair out,

But on the outside?

I’m smiling, pretending as if my world isn’t falling apart.

Why can’t I? Will I ever?

Will I ever become the person I want to be?

Will I ever show how I truly feel?

Will I ever, for once, not care about hurting the person in front of me?