Why I'm Always Silent

Some things in life

are simply better left

unsaid.

I have opened up my mouth

and just scared off

another friend.

I let you know what's on my mind.

I know exactly what you’re thinking.

“There’s too much bullshit in one body.”

I’m too fucked up to be this pretty.

Raised in the dark.

The rest grew up on

Privileged Lane.

I don’t understand their happy.

And they don’t

understand

my pain.

I have this fear,

it’s called

my mind.

I can’t be left with it

alone.

It drags me deep into dark places

and I’m afraid of the unknown.

“Where will it drag me when I am lonely?”

At times, I cannot bear to tell.

Hard to control where my mind will take me.

It’s got me locked under a spell.

“Repeated films

of broken memories

remind me that I’m nothing more

than someone who tried to escape.

I may have won some battles,

but I am losing the war."

Because my mind

is in control.

It’s always

keeping me in chains.

The darkest secret

I’m forced to hold,

for my mind refuses to

release the pain.