Why Don't You?

You always say you were the gentle one.

Maybe you always meant to be...

But I grew up learning how to fill the spaces

where your love should've been for me.

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You talk about the sacrifices.

How stepping back was for the best...

But I was just a child caught between two hearts

too angry to ever rest.

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I kept dreaming you could love me

that your arms would open wide...

I kept stitching hope together

from the scraps you left inside.

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I just wish you would love me.

Why don't you?

I keep changing who I am

hoping one day I'll be enough...

for you.

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I'm holding on with shaking hands.

Breaking just to fit your plans.

I just wish you would love me.

Why don't you?

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I reached for you on purpose

when everything in me came undone.

Shaping myself around your mood swings...

trying to become your chosen one.

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I thought maybe you would see me.

Maybe something soft and kind...

But your love stayed somewhere distant...

always just beyond my mind.

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I kept changing little pieces

hoping one might catch your eye.

But the more I tried to matter...

the more I learned to disappear inside.

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I just wish you would love me.

Why don't you?

I keep changing who I am...

Hoping one day I'll be enough

For you.

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I'm holding on with shaking hands.

Breaking just to fit your plans.

I just wish you would love me.

Why don't you?

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I braced myself against your anger

even as it tore into my skin.

Held my ground with trembling hands

pretending I was whole within.

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You said you'd always be there...

I wanted so much for that to be true.

I kept offering you pieces

you never really knew.

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I don't need your apology...

or the words you never said.

I just keep on showing up for you

even when it leaves me feeling dead.

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I stay through every quiet ache.

Through all the pain you put me through.

Not because you ever asked me...

but because I don't know how not to love you.

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I just wish you would love me.

Why don't you?

Why am I never enough for the man

I keep reaching out to?

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I deserve a voice. Deserve a chance.

Deserve a father who understands.

I just wish you would love me.

Why don't you?

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