Why didnt I Realize

Is there really anything i could do

to make up for the mistakes I have made

to take back what has happened

and just try my hardest

i did not realize what i was doing

till it was to late and done to me

now im eternally sorry

it makes me wonder why

i had what i had in the first place

to realize this makes me want to die

i cant take it back

only promise

that i wont do it anymore

now that i know what it feels like

i dont want anyone to go through it anymore

but did i really need to lose the one i love to find out

did it really need to go that far

it has been grinded into me

how i was before

i will never go back to that

but i want to go back to what i had

to get her back with my own hands

but i have lost the one i love

and now i will never be the same

to late for me to make that change