Who Am I?

People keep saying that emotions are terrifying

To me, it's the lack of that's worse

Not knowing what I feel

Or feeling nothing at all

Leaves my consciousness empty

And my body numb

Do I have control over my strength and state of mind

Or does nothingness control me and the decisions I make at this point in time

Who I am and what I want varies by how many stars I can see in the city skies

Varieties of traits combining creating a constellation too large to comprehend

Never being able to connect to myself again

How can I control my life when it's myself telling me otherwise

All I can do is feel nothing

And wish to feel something soon