What if I die at 18 and not 57?

What if I die at 18 and not 57?

How quick will you forget me when I'll be in heaven?

Second guess~One year? Less or more?

"Lifetime!", you say... But I am not sure!

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What if I die, right in front of you?

Will your life too end, is that true?

You will just let me go in that soil so deep?

You'll just cry over me or worst~ only weep

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"My life would end", I didn't see that happen

You didn't end yourself when I was hurt, no weapon?

So, you lied, didn't you? You moved on at day three

You stopped crying at forth accepting you were free

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Will you burry those letters with me in my grave?

Or maybe put them on fire? I know you will, You’re brave!

But what about your ring that you put on my finger so well?

Where should I burn it? Deep in the heavens or in the hell?

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When I die this year, don’t dare see my face

You won your life! I was never in that race

Now that I die so fast, don’t celebrate too hard

What about that letters I wrote? That lovely Valentine card?

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May God forgive you, that’s all I pray

The amount of pain you threw my way

Was enough to complain in heavens to let you burn

But, a window in my heart still waits for your return

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What kind of brutal love have you left for me?

Where you decided to start over and I can’t even unlove, you see

Stop appearing in my dreams when you’ve abandoned me in my reality

I’ve forgiven you for everything but how shall I forget your cruelty?

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So, Mr. Weak-Some, when I die at 18 this year…

Will it break your heart, or will you fulfil my fear?

Just know that, when you hear my soul flying away

Remember I was hurt when I died, I was in love with you, someone grey

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A/N:

Love is the most beautiful and the worst thing at the same time!