What If?

What If?

What if my life had been ideal?

No abandonment by my mother,

She’d stayed to raise me and not run away

Her reasons wouldn’t make me wonder

What if my dad had been a loving man?

Not cruel and narcissistic

He would have loved selflessly

Been benevolent, not parasitic

What if the neighbor had kept his hands to himself?

Not on this little girl

Maybe the woman I’d become

Would’ve known an untainted world

What if memories like these had not

Influenced the choices I would make

I’d not have rushed to get away

But my self-worth and value were at stake

What if I hadn’t married the wrong man?

Who debased me and brought me lower

I might not have wasted years of my youth

Allowing him to steal my dreams, he readily devoured

What if all this had not occurred?

I could have soared with wings in life

Not fought off the demons around every corner

I knew neither peace nor ease, just strife

What if I’d never met the one man,

Who changed my life and gave me a family?

I might not have known contentment or joy

I might have lived embittered and unhappily.

I could’ve spent my life in hate

Blamed others for my own errors

Missed the many blessings despite so much evil

Never known the beauty in love and life’s splendors

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