What I Was Never Taught

by Pierce Viney about a year ago in heartbreak

A Poem

What I Was Never Taught

If I said I loved you, maybe you’d still be here

Sometimes I wish to stand alone, but still find myself drowning in your smile.

I’ve only been taught how to feel blue but everyday seems to run by in black and white

Everynight the regretful but loving hands of those who never loved me pull me further

But I was never taught how to love.

Only to scrunch my face at the sour taste of those who never loved me.

I want are feet to align like the waves of the ocean

I want us to hold each other closer and wish that tomorrow would never come if we closed our eyes tighter

But I still choke on I love you.

You are a one hundred foot drop and I’m afraid of heights

But still I blindfolded myself and was ready to give my everything for you

But I was never taught how to dive,

Or how to love,

Or how to be held at three a.m. when everything catches up to me like an old friend

I thought you taught me how to love

But really all you showed me was the hate.

Our love was a abstract painting,

A piece of beautiful art filled with mazes and labyrinths

But also dead end that give you nothing but the words “every ending is a new beginning”

But yet im stuck at a dead end

With absolutely nothing after.

Im sinking further.

But now I can’t see a light at the end of the tunnel

And I know

This is the last time,

For me,

To say those dreadful words,

On my last breath,

I love you.

Written By: Gwen Osborne (me)

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Pierce Viney

I am 15, transgender ftm, gay, artist.

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