What I Know Now

At my new job I'm asked to participate in an icebreaker activity

Where I pull a sentence starter from a paper bag

And then finish that sentence aloud to my group.

I reach into the paper bag in front of me,

Grab a slip of paper,

Unfold it.

It reads, "If I knew then what I know now..."

I quickly answer -

"If I knew then what I know now, I would have left home a lot sooner."

And then I wonder if I mean it.

It's been two months since that icebreaker;

Two months away from home

And I still wonder if I meant it.

I left friends and family

For themes parks and thunderstorms.

I traded stability for uncertainty,

And I'm certainly uncertain -

Have I flown too close to the Florida sun?

Did I mean it?