What hurts more

The words “I love you” rolled off my tongue so quickly

And when I said it,

I made sure to say it clearly.

Our love was strong,

But our communication wasn’t quite there.

Still, I adored the times and memories we shared.

Things weren’t perfect, but when are they ever.

I thought because you said you were sorry,

Things would get better,

But your words were only words,

So I should’ve known better.

Still, I loved when you said those three silly words.

Every time you said I love you,

I could hear white doves singing

And wedding bells ringing.

At least in my dreams

Because, in reality, our days were filled with screams

While our nights would get to the extremes.

Where did we go wrong?

I thought this was where I belonged.

You made me believe you loved me,

But now I see

That it wasn’t love,

And I could forget about the doves.

You were nothing more than a narcissist

That I could not resist.

I realized the best thing for me was to let go

And not stay in touch

Because I knew holding on,

Any longer would cost me too much.