Wedding Day

Years in the making, the day is done.

Confetti thrown and you are gone.

I know it's part of life's big game

But still, I am emotionally lame.

Looking back on the joyful day,

I remember it in many ways.

White and serene, a veil in place

Subtly hiding your joyful face;

Stately entrance through arched oak door

Measured walk on decorative floor,

Gliding slowly, music playing,

Congregation gently swaying.

Heads turning for a shaky glance,

Fascinator feathers bob and dance.

These grey stone walls silently see

Another happy matrimony.

The joy is floating in the air,

Pollen joins it, hanging there,

Dream-filled haze of heartfelt feeling

Rising, lifting the vaulted ceiling.

My heart was full, my spirit high

The moisture springing to my eye;

Was it happiness I felt?

If so, why do I feel bereft?

It is not that I am without joy.

You have revealed your ideal boy;

A man to be there, day-t0-day,

Supporting you in every way,

Embracing you, exploring you

Making memories, bright and new;

Exclusive bubble, close and warm.

Devoted, intimate, newly sworn.

I am so glad you found each other;

Someone who loves you like no other.

Reflecting now, I see your dance

The perfect picture of romance.

It is this moment I can't forget;

The one that fills me with regret.

Your hand in his, you move as one

Melded together, the join is gone

That separated you as two:

Pieces no more, love as glue.

Mesmerised, I watch you move

The drink, the music gently soothe,

Until it hits me like a slap!

This is it! No turning back!

I pull my wrap around me, close

To combat, halt feeling morose:

It strikes me. I have lost my place;

You're gazing at each other's face

With such emotion unsurpassed

It takes me back into our past

When looks of love we too had shared

Affection shown and emotions bared.

I am no longer number one

For you. It seems that time is done.

It is not envy that I feel,

No malice towards you as I reel:

But the light bulb moment has me rent,

Emotionally feeling spent.

It's knowing that you're moving on

That life has grabbed and pushed you on

Towards a pairing with another

Away, in distance from your mother.

It is a small wound, I know will heal.

Balmed with love, I hope not to feel

It keenly in the days before me

And it is not difficult to see

That this union is really right;

His presence fills yours with light,

Reflected in your glowing smile

Your laughs produced without guile

So easily by him, I'd be a churl

To resent the love he gives my girl.

I simply know I'll miss you so.

The day has come when you must go.

It has been sat, horizon distant;

A threat, kept back, my mind resistant

To the realisation of the change

And how our lives will rearrange

Into something different and new

A readjustment for us two.

But I think I'll feel it more than you

Outside your bubble made for two.