We were not okay when we left for Texas,
But once again we put our problems aside,
out of the convenance of our relationship,
I needed a break from everything,
I think part of that meant, a break from you too,
But I kept hoping it would get better,
we would get better,
that your hometown would provide me with a piece of you,
That I didn't have before,
Instead, I felt something else in my core,
I felt an absence,
of what I wanted, what I desire,
With a hole of it not being there,
intermixed with complex differences,
I don't believe we can fix,
It gapes in a part of me you can't fill,
no matter how wonderful you are to me,
or how you have qualities I have always dreamed,
something is missing,
Something where your family ties,
strained the way I saw us,
In a way where all of our problems,
have risen to the surface,
Where our past will not be erased,
but our future isn't to be seen the same,
Where I accepted a part of me, I have been ignoring,
The past few weeks I have seen you,
Seen you put your needs aside to hold onto me tighter,
seen you wanting to give me the space I desire,
But wishing I was calling you because you make my day better,
instead, I have been withdrawing,
Calling out of obligation,
Limiting facetimes to avoid my feelings showing,
While you are adding I love you into every ending,
I question what texts are worth sending,
without leading you on,
Because a piece of my heart with us is gone,
I no longer see a future with you,
I think a part of me always knew,
this to be true,
This didn't come out of the blue,
it is something that grew overtime,
loving you was not blind,
But I don't know how to prolong being kind,
When to you, I don't see you as mine.
About the Creator
Rilee Arey
What a life we live, Lets live a life where we have something to write home about!
27-year-old trying to find meaning, love and a life worth living.
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