VOID
I lost a part of me a long time ago,
Gathered some broken bits with the space my hands could fit to fill the vacancy,
But it was never quite right,
I searched for a long time,
Tried every shape, every size,
Some I tired more than twice,
A few of those bits seemed to almost fit,
...Almost,
I clinged on to that hope until I was told it was not mine to hold,
And everytime I let go,
I seem to be losing a little more of myself.
I lost a part of me a long time ago,
It left a black hole of sorts in it's place,
All my dreams get sucked into this oblivion,
I've fought it long enough to know I can not win,
So I don't fight anymore.
I lost a part of me a long time ago,
It was only recently that I learned nothing was good enough for this void,
I taught myself how to exist without being whole,
This prominent emptiness at the center of me lasted so long I barely know it's presence,
...or absence,
Except in those spontaneous moments,
When I find darkness in places it shouldn't be found,
When I feel Pain at times I'm not supposed to,
I am reminded that I'm not quite alive,
That I'm not quite human just something that resembles it,
I'm reminded that there is an all consuming hole in my chest,
A hole Growing like a virus that can't stop,
How long can I be eaten up without thinning?
I lost a part of me a long time ago,
I doubt whether I'll ever get it back,
But I'm naive enough to keep trying.
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About the Creator
Asim
I'm writer, poet and blogger with many experiences and accolades.I started a career on vocal, i'm passionate to write poetry on vocal media.I'm committed to my work and believed in continuous struggle.
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