Versatile

Versatile

Do you know what it’s like - to live an impossible life

To have everything turn into nothing right before your eyes

Watching it all go

Playing back like a movie stuck on slow

So you always have to know

Do you know how it feels - to have to live with your fears

To sit in the same room trapped with the monsters licking your tears

Hearing them laugh at your pain

Cruelty being all that resides in their brain

Never knowing when it will come again to rip you apart and tare you open

Have you ever been broken down to dust and sand - put yourself back together just so it can happen again

Staring off into the silence of your shattering soul - pulling at your insides trying to understand. Begging for it to end.

Covered in the violence broken across your face

Having your body taken to leave you in disgrace

Spending everyday that way

trapped in a cage

no longer able to relate

fear crawling across my skin every time I look at him

Have you ever wondered what it means to stand in the dark and try to scream

It’s a silent sound that doesn’t let you breathe

It’s both wretched and loud

Crawling up your throat with no way to get out

Ripping right through you until you’re vibrating with pain

Did you know that sometimes it’s the only sound that I can make

right before I’m about to break

Do you know what it’s like to be hunted down - to be carved out of the world and placed in the ground

To feel so abandoned your to scared to make a sound

Afraid if you do all you’ll see is how there will be no one around

To never have anyone by your side

because no one has ever allowed you to be alive

To see the reflection that you make in someone else’s eyes knowing how easy it is for them to believe their own lies

While I’m trapped inside

A half-life is not a life - living in a box masked by neon disguise

A place empty of comfort or any kind of love

A place filled with so much destruction it’s burned into every touch

Here where I remain so broken and alone where no one bothered to look thinking it must be fine or at least good enough