Unfiltered

I am Vaisa

Vaisa is who I have always been

Tori was a filter

An Alias

A mask that others put on my face

I am woman

A lesbian

I am out again

I am kind

I am genuine

I am of flesh and scars

I am made of mistake and luck

I am made of the stars I long for

I am made of the nights I lie awake

And the days I stare ahead

I am the twilight that breathes shakily

I am of pill bottles emptied

And shoulder-shaking sobs

I am of raucous laughs

And many self truths

I am ever changing

Non-linear evolution of the self

I am bright as Vega

Loud like Nico Vega

I listen like a bird for calls

Waiting for the fall

Wading through trauma

I am tired of standing tall

I am tired of fighting

I am genuine but at what cost?

I am unfiltered,

But I still feel lost.

One thing I am sure of,

is not where I'll end up

but Who I Am.

I am Vaisa.