Tonight I Can Write the Saddest Lines

Tonight I write the saddest lines.

My thoughts and feelings,

The sad and insecure,

The lonely and unspoken,

However -- not all of them tonight.

Tonight only a few,

The few needed to be known,

but not them all.

The one I want and love,

doesn’t wish to love me,

Not as I love him.

He loves another

I'm sure.

Tonight I write the saddest lines,

Knowing he doesn't love me,

knowing that all we'll ever be,

Is nothing more than good friends.

breaks me down

Tonight I write the saddest lines.

How my love does not love me back,

the way I wish.

The clouds are like me,

holding everything in,

Until one day the rain rushes out,

I am cold icy rain,

My tears, weeping and crying.

Tonight I write the saddest lines,

I stand there in this cold rain,

in these gray clouds,

waiting for my knight in shining armor,

“Come save me, please. Save me from myself,”

I cry, but my knight isn’t listening.

Take me out of this cold rain,

make me warm again,

This feeling isn’t the same,

No warmth,

Instead of blissfulness, tiredness,

No peacefulness - it’s gone.

I'm waiting for him to come save me,

To make me feel loved.

Tonight I write the saddest lines,

I know the one I love,

doesn't love me,

I can see it,

I can feel it.

thoughts swirl in my head,

a tornado shrieking

that if he loves me,

his love wouldn't be real.

He wouldn’t really love me,

His love would be out of pity.

Tonight I write the saddest lines,

I wait for him,

My knight in shining armor.

But he does not come.

Tonight I write the saddest lines,