I haven’t told them the worst of it.
I haven’t told them that I saved my own life at four years old.
I haven’t told them I regret it.
I haven’t told them of the memories,
The ones I can’t recall
And the ones I’ll never know.
The blank spaces my brain has created to protect me from even more harm.
I haven’t told them the late dark nights in the back seat of the rusted blue car.
I haven’t told them of the narrow escapes or the the times I was caught.
I haven’t told them of the neglect and the constant exposure.
I haven’t told them of never being protected.
I haven’t told them of hunger that ended with hot oil and bubbling skin.
I haven’t told them that I no longer dream,
That I no longer hope.
Because I told them other things
And they couldn’t hear me
Because I shared other memories, other realities
And they were silent.
And now my mouth is dry and full of cobwebs.
I will never tell again.
About the Creator
L
“By hell there is nothing you can do that you want and by heaven you are going to do it anyway”
Anne Spencer
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