To feel, to change

Life, to me, is experience—

the good and the bad,

the joy and the heartbreak,

the moments that lift me up

and the ones that leave me undone.

I wanted to feel it all—

to fall in love,

to hold your hand,

to look into your eyes

and also to know the ache of distance,

the quiet pain of longing,

the tenderness of missing you.

It doesn't mean I'm ready for all of it.

It doesn't mean I handle it well.

I get affected—deeply.

I carry regrets.

I hold onto dreams,

and wishes I barely say out loud.

Sometimes,

I'm not even thankful

for the very things I once begged for.

But those experiences—

they’ve made me who I am.

So I’ll keep welcoming more.

Even the hard ones.

Because there’s still so much I can change—

still so much I can become.

To be better.

For you.