To Be Yellow
A compliment from a stranger
A man approached me once
In a college-town bar
He sang Hank and Johnny Cash
The lines and wrinkles on his face
A road map of his journeys
His hair was graying-black
His brown leather well-worn
He came up to my table
And told me seven words
“When I see you I see yellow”
I was a little drunk
In that college-town bar
I sang STP and Miley
That middling karaoke
Propelling my friends and I
Toward the end of the night
But I remember that man
And I remember his words
And I remember thinking then
That I didn’t want to be yellow
Yellow is old cigarette stains
Yellow is the sludge of algae
Carpeting a quiet lake
My sympathetic nervous system
Shutting down with adrenaline
Is yellow – my belly painted
For the whole world to see
I knew that he meant well
I knew to smile and thank him
But I didn’t want to be yellow
I wanted to be red
Full of vibrance and passion
Or hinting at danger
A rose tucked in a lapel
A bottle of sangria
Blood dripping from a dagger
Red is a roulette wheel
Red is a bra flung on the floor
Red is a no trespassing sign
I would’ve liked to be red
I would’ve also taken blue
Calm and ever stoic
Deep and mysterious
A hidden, pristine lagoon
A cloudless afternoon sky
An old Ford pickup truck
Blue is meditation
Blue is a saxophone solo
Blue is a morning in the mountains
I would’ve liked to be blue
I’ve thought a lot about that man
And his eidolon that night
I’ve wondered what vision burgeoned
And bade him name me yellow
Was it a splash of sunshine
Or a well-aged guitar
Was it a Sunday brunch
Or an April wheat field
Could it possibly be
That I deserved to be yellow
I’m sure he just intended
An ephemeral compliment
But those words instilled a challenge
I go into that white world now
And sing my passable songs
And try to remind someone
Of an aspen in autumn
I no longer seek blue or red
I go into that white world now
And I try to be yellow
About the Creator
Stephanie Nielsen
All the power held
I can create and destroy
With a simple pen
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