sometimes there is so much going on
so much life
that I forget to live
the appointments, the shopping,
the classes (unstopping),
the playdates, the cleaning,
the crafts, the eating,
the workbooks, the boardgames,
the cooking, straightening frames,
the “necessary” exercise (I swear it kills me sometimes),
the hygiene,
the caffeine,
all to helps with the caregiving,
the emotional lessons, the breakdowns, and breakthroughs
it’s all just happening
constantly.
I schedule in my breaks,
plan my “relaxation”
just going along mindlessly
with my shallow breathing
and my perspiration
my idle thoughts running
hurry up and calm down
unable to remember the last time I got to just…
BE.
be without expectations
and deadlines
and the rushing and the panic and the
i m p e n d i n g d o o m
sick of needing to be somewhere
do something
act a certain way
AT ALL TIMES
When do I get the time to just be me?
When will I allow myself to have that?
Why haven’t I yet?
Am I running away from me?
About the Creator
Lolly Vieira
Welcome to my page where I make sense of all the facets of myself through poetry and short stories.
I'm an artist of many mediums and strive to know and do better every day.
https://linktr.ee/lollyslittlelovelies
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