Have I changed?
No, no I haven't changed...
Then why?
Why do I go from crying
To happy
To crying once more.
So far away from each other I do not understand...
Why do I do this to myself?
I cry
Then I'm happy
Then I cry once more.
Why?
Why is it that I solve my problem,
And then go running back?
Back through the dark woods that never scared me,
Back through the eerie, ripping sounds of lonely cries,
Back through the heart wrenching memories,
Just to be brought back here.
Here where I only know.
I cry,
Then I'm happy,
Then I cry again.
A vicious cycle...
Where I am lost.
But at the same time, I am found.
Found and welcomed like an old friend
To a darkness that cradles me
And reminds me how I need it more than it needs me.
I beg for it to come closer
I beg for it to never leave
Like everything else...
I beg for it to never be like happiness is,
Because happiness comes and goes
But the darkness is here forever.
Why do we do this?
Why do I do this?
I cry,
Then I'm happy,
Then I cry once more,
And I am home,
In an empty home,
That is dark and breaking,
But it is all I know.
About the Creator
Annisa Love
I am a hairstylist going to school for journalism. Hope you enjoy what I write! I also love to draw, so check out my Redbubble: https://www.redbubble.com/people/AnnisaC/shop?asc=u
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