I used to blame everything in my timeline
For the way that my timeline
Bloomed into this new timeline
Let’s start at birth, don’t worry I’ll skip a few years
But, abandoned to soon, I was born where my “father” didn’t appear
Too young to understand
It doesn’t take being absent to be a man
He appeared with some other woman
And a child who had a new toy...
While I had...nothing....man
Shuttled to stay with other family
While my mom went to work and school
Again, too young to understand
That another man can be a fool
For he was “Show me on the doll where he touched you” kind of uncle
Moving on to school and making friends
I was too quiet and shy to make any friends
Yet here they come asking time and time again
“How can you smile when you been through so much...pain”
Thanks to my timeline
I knew that my timeline
Had something to do
with the way my timeline was unfolding
This
Was undoubtedly true
Didn’t really get a boyfriend
Until I started college
But because of my timeline
I didn’t really have the knowledge
Of how a man should treat me
No doubt,
I was beginning to think it was me
Am I too fat?
Am I too black?
Am I too strong?
Of course my family saw nothing was wrong
So I hid in my corner
Sad and became a loner
As friends moved on
It’s fine I was use to be alone
It’s fine...I’m use to being alone
Alone in my corner
Sitting in the dark
Thanks timeline
You know how to play the part
Dark
Depressed
Wearing black because now
That’s the way I dress
Bagging clothing
Didn’t really give a damn
No one else did
My whole timeline was a sham
Everyone I met
Ended up leaving me and yet
Because of my past I got numb
.....numb....no feeling and yet
Let’s make matters worse!
Let’s move 10hrs away!
Sure that’s fine with me!
My friends don’t care anyways!
Bags packed!
Let’s go!
My past is no more!
Let’s make a new timeline on our way out the door!
Nope!...No sun
Just bitter cold
Great now I’m cold and alone
Guess I’ll go back to feeling numb
Oh great, A guy is speaking to me
Oh, Please go away
Leave me in my deep dark corner
You wouldn’t want me any way
No, please don’t get to know me
Don’t try to love me
Don’t try and hold me
Don’t try to tell me I’m beautiful
See my timeline warned me
No guy is this soulful
No guy in his right mind
Would ever love me this full
*Gasps* he makes me laugh
He makes me smile
He tells me time and time again
To not let my timeline make me senile
He gives me a different outlook
We vibe together
He challenges my mind
We ride together
So here I am 7 years later
And even though my timeline
Has made it hard...
It could have only turned out for the better
About the Creator
Lady Psyren
I am an independent artist and writer based in Milwaukee, WI. I've always enjoyed writing and I use nature to help me do it. I write Hip-Hop/R&B and Video Game Music. My poetry is usually about the world as I see it and my culture.
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