Through Your Eyes

For my daughter, Elizabeth

I brought you into this world,

you came a beautiful girl.

I was so proud to show,

I taught you all I know,

while I watched you grow.

Everywhere we went,

all the time we spent,

you never left my side.

That's when I realized,

I could see, through your eyes.

​They were so open wide,

telling stories on a ride,

to strangers you were shy.

I believed it would never end,

I believed my own lie.

I don't know when it happened.

I think I looked away,

when I looked back again,

a woman took your place.

I did not recognize her face,

of the child, I raised, not a trace.

That's when I realized,

I could not see,

through your eyes, anymore.

Where do you keep all that vengeance and hate,

anger is all I see.

This was not the way I raised you to be,

yet it all falls back on me.

But I still don't know when,

your heart grew so cold,

with all those lies that you told.

How did you convince everyone?

I wonder which lie you sold?

Such a price to pay,

without you by my side,

that’s when I realized,

I can’t see through your eyes, anymore

And then you had just one,

a perfect little son.

You let us get close,

waiting until,

I loved him the most,

While You saw troubling days,

I helped with each case,

to ease your stress,

but instead of rest,

you laughed at what's best,

and choices became tests.

Until you did the dirtiest deed.

You took the boy, away from me.

And in my anguish and pain,

while pleading and asking why,

the answer never came.

And I realized,

I can't see through your eyes, anymore.

And without ever knowing why,

I just walked away.

You were just a dream,

from a long time ago.

Asking myself 'was it real,

that love you once showed?

It is me and your boy,

you use and possess.

Is that your greatest joy?

To only trick and suppress,

to make us feel less?

I did not raise you to be this way,

I've nothing left to say.

My little girl had already died,

long before she gave to us,

all these reasons to cry.

Now I realize,

I don't want to try,

to see through your eyes, anymore.

Revol J Brasier - 2021